Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and ArtistBernhardt, Sarah
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Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and Artist
Bernhardt, Sarah
Actors -- Biography; Bernhardt, Sarah, 1844-1923; Women -- Biography
“Oh, yes, I have passed,” I answered, and I could not resist stopping a
minute in order to enjoy the astonishment of the hall-porter family. I
then hurried on, but on reaching the courtyard came to a dead stand,
anger and grief taking possession of me, for there I beheld my _petite
dame_, her two hands forming a trumpet, her head thrown back, shouting
to my mother who was leaning out of the window: “Yes, yes, she has
passed!” I gave her a thump with my clenched hand and began to cry with
rage, for I had prepared a little story for my mother, ending up with
the joyful surprise. I had intended putting on a very sad look on
arriving at the door, and pretending to be broken-hearted and ashamed. I
felt sure she would say: “Oh, I am not surprised, my poor child, you are
so foolish!” and then I should have thrown my arms round her neck and
said: “It isn’t true, it isn’t true; I have passed!” I had pictured to
myself her face brightening up, and then old Marguerite and my godfather
laughing heartily, and my sisters dancing with joy, and here was Mme.
Guérard sounding her trumpet and spoiling all my effects that I had
prepared so well.
I must say that the kind woman continued as long as she lived (that is
the greater part of my life) spoiling all my effects. It was all in vain
that I made scenes; she could not help herself. Whenever I told a good
story and wanted it to be very effective, she would invariably burst
into fits of laughter before the end of it. If I started on a story with
a very lamentable ending, which was to be a surprise, she would sigh,
roll her eyes, and murmur: “Oh, dear! oh, dear!” so that I always missed
the effect I was counting on. Still more often, when anything was being
guessed and I asked people for the answer, she would reply before anyone
else, as she was always in my confidence, and I had perhaps told her the
answer a second before. All this used to exasperate me to such a degree
that, before beginning a story or a game, I used to ask her to go out of
the room, and she would get up and go, laughing at the idea of the
blunder she would make if there.
Furious, then, on this occasion, and abusing Mme. Guérard, I went
upstairs to my mother, whom I found at the open door. She kissed me
affectionately, and on seeing my sulky face asked if I was not
satisfied.
“Yes,” I replied, “but I am furious with Guérard. Be nice, mamma, and
pretend you don’t know. Shut the door, and I will ring.”
She did this, and I rang the bell. Marguerite opened the door, and my
mother came and pretended to be astonished. My sisters, too, arrived,
and my godfather and my aunt. When I kissed my mother, exclaiming, “I
have passed!” everyone shouted with joy, and I was gay again. I had made
my effect anyhow. It was “the career” taking possession of me unawares.
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