City and town life -- Fiction; Death -- Fiction; England -- Fiction; Short stories, English
For some weeks Kinsman had his silent chuckle against Harrowsmith. He
told himself that this was mean and narrow. He struggled against his
jubilation and his contemptuous reflection that the doctor was a fool.
He tried to regard him as a fellow-enthusiast--with a different
objective. He wished to avoid the narrow outlook of the average
collector. He imagined that his flirtations with china, with Empire
lounges and candelabra, with the tapering legs of Chippendale chairs
had made him tolerant and broadly sympathetic. Evidently it was not so.
He looked at his cabinet; he thought of his eccentric thorax--which,
after all, Harrowsmith might never possess--and again, silently, in the
seclusion of his own rooms, he chuckled.
After dinner each night, as he sat and smoked, he stole frequent
moments for the cabinet. He jumped up now and then imagining that he
had discovered some new minute detail in the work. Or he opened the
doors and stuck his head far into the cavernous cupboards. They exhaled
an aromatic perfume. Perhaps some woman had once kept Eastern
embroideries there; this was a superficial speculation which he
afterward discarded as being unworthy and improbable. He finally
decided that it had been used as a linen press--linen folded away with
lavender; or a thrifty housewife had stored within choice apples. It
was the perfume of old orchards that teased his nostrils.
He tried to supply the cabinet with a history. Harrowsmith could tell
him nothing except that his Uncle Bob had bought it at a sale.
Sometimes he looked at it so long, so ardently, that he almost thought
he was on the point of drawing from the massive brown thing the secrets
of dead generations.
He could never tell me the exact momentous occasion when the first
faint chill of repugnance struck him. He did remember the night when,
as he came home tired from the City, and cast his eyes on the cabinet
as usual, it seemed insufficient for the first time. What was it, after
all, to make so much fuss about? Had he paid too great a price? Until
that moment he had never given one thought to the price.
In the evenings, smoking his cigarette, one hand loose on his knee, he
asked himself how that hand would look--dead. Involuntarily he
stiffened it. Perhaps it was the slowly rising horror in him which made
it appear whiter than it ever had been before. His hand! He was sorry
for it. His body! What an injustice he had done it. Had any man the
right to rob his body of the sanctity and superb solitude which come
after death? The meanest wretch living retained the right to that
majestic aloofness. He had mortgaged his. The first seeds of hate and
fear sprouted in his heart.
He dashed out of his chambers and went down Chancery Lane into Fleet
Street. He walked west to a theater. The play was a tragedy. As he sat
in the pit he laughed when the other people thrilled. He then looked in
amazement at the scandalized faces surrounding him.
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