War stories, English; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
"What's he been saying?" I murmured sleepily.
"He's been thinking what he'd do," laughed Jack, "if the stout female
personage in yonder small canoe overbalanced and fell in. There'll be no
fatal second then, Jerry, my boy. It'll be a minute even if I have to
hold you. You'd never be able to look your friends in the face again if
you didn't let her drown."
"Ass!" grunted Jerry. "No, Winkle, I was just thinking, amongst other
things, of what might very easily happen to any of us three here, and
what did happen to old Grantley in South Africa." Grantley was one of
our majors. "He told me all about it one day in one of his expansive
moods. It was during a bit of a scrap just before Paardeburg, and he had
some crowd of irregular Johnnies. He was told off to take a position,
and apparently it was a fairly warm proposition. However, it was
perfectly feasible if only the men stuck it. Well, they didn't, but they
would have except for his momentary indecision. He told me that there
came a moment in the advance when one man wavered. He knew it and felt
it all through him. He saw the man--he almost saw the deadly contagion
spreading from that one man to the others--and he hesitated and was
lost. When he sprang forward and tried to hold 'em, he failed. The fear
was on them, and they broke. He told me he regarded himself as every bit
as much to blame as the man who first gave out."
"But what could he have done, Jerry?" asked Pat.
"Shot him, dear--shot him on the spot without a second's thought--killed
the origin of the fear before it had time to spread. I venture to say
that there are not many fellows in the Service who would do it--without
thinking: and you can't think--you dare not, even if there was time. It
goes against the grain, especially if you know the man well, and it's
only by continually rehearsing the scene in your mind that you'd be able
to do it."
We were all listening to him now, for this was a new development I'd
never heard before.
"Just imagine the far-reaching results one coward--no, not coward,
possibly--but one man who has reached the breaking-point, may have.
Think of it, Winkle. A long line stretched out, attacking. One man in
the centre wavers, stops. Spreading outwards, the thing rushes like
lightning, because, after all, fear is only an emotion, like joy and
sorrow, and one knows how quickly they will communicate themselves to
other people. Also, in such a moment as an attack, men are particularly
susceptible to emotions. All that is primitive is uppermost, and their
reasoning powers are more or less in abeyance."
"But the awful thing, Jerry," said Pat quietly, "is that you would never
know whether it had been necessary or not. It might not have spread; he
might have answered to your voice--oh! a thousand things might have
happened."
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