Artists -- Fiction; English fiction -- 20th century; Jews -- England -- London -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
"No. If you want me like that I don't want you to let me go," she
said, "for it is so important."
"Yes," he said. "It may mean an entirely new kind of picture, for I
don't know anybody's work that has quite what is hammering away in my
head to get out. It must be because you love me that you can feel it
when no one else can. Even to Logan it is only like a superior
poster."
How adorable he was in this mood of simplicity and humility! She could
relax her vigilance, and sway unreservedly to his mood and give him
all that he required of her, her clearness, her sensitive purity.
"You are like no other woman in the world to me," he went on. "You
fill me with the most wonderful joy, like a Cranach or a Dürer
drawing. I can forget almost that you are a woman, so that it is a
most wonderful surprise that you are one after all. You are the only
person in the world whom I can place side by side with my mother."
"You don't know what it is to me," she said, "to have a friend so
strong and frank as you are."
He put out his hand and laid it on her arm wonderingly, as if to
satisfy himself that she was really there, much as on his first visit
to Hampstead he had touched the grass.
"I think I shall live to be very old," he said, "and you will be just
the same to me then as you are now."
"Oh, Mendel!"
"Say that again!" he said, but she could not speak. Her eyes were
brimming with tears and she hung her head. She longed to take him to
her arms and to fondle him, to make him young, to charm away the
pitiful old weary helplessness that he had. Reacting from this mood in
her, which he did not understand and took for the first symptoms of
surrender, he became wild and boastful, and clowned like a silly boy
to attract her attention.
Her will set against him. She could not endure the sudden swoop from
the highest sympathy to the gallantry of the streets, and when he was
weary of his tricks she tried to bring him to his senses by asking him
suddenly:--
"Is Logan a nice man?"
"He is my best friend. He has wonderful ideas and energy like a
steam-engine, and he has suffered too. He is not like the art students
who expect painting pictures to be as easy as knitting. He could have
been almost anything, but he believes that art is the most important
thing of all. He has made a great difference to me, by teaching me to
be independent. . . . I will take you to see him one day."
"I should like to meet him, because he has made a great difference in
you."
"He steals."
That gave Morrison a shock, for Mendel seemed to be stating the fact
as a recommendation.
"Yes. When he has no money he steals. I went with him once and we
stole some reproductions."
She was sorry she had mentioned Logan. Mendel was a different creature
at once. Their glamourous happiness was gone. Logan seemed to have
stalked in between them and the purity of their delight withered away.
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