Artists -- Fiction; English fiction -- 20th century; Jews -- England -- London -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
She led him into the bare, white ward, across which the sun threw
great shafts of light, to Logan's bedside. At the head of the bed a
policeman was sitting with his helmet on his knees, staring straight
in front of him. He turned his eyes on Mendel, who thought he looked a
very nice man, something amusingly imperturbable in this racking world
of tragedy.
He stood by the bedside and looked down at Logan, in whose face there
was at last the noble, conquering expression at which, through all his
foolish striving, he had always aimed. His brow was strong and
massive, his mouth relentless as Beethoven's, his nose sharp and
stubborn, and there was something exquisite and sensitive in the drawn
skin about his eyes. From his white brow his shock of black hair fell
back on the pillow.
His hand was outside the grey coverlet. Mendel took it in his. Logan
opened his eyes, and into them came an expression of almost
incredulous surprise, of ecstatic, intolerable happiness. He had
wakened out of his dream into his dream, to be with Mendel, to have
gone through the very depths to be with Mendel. His hand closed tight
on his friend's and his lids drooped over his eyes.
He opened them again after a few moments and said:--
"You!"
The nurse placed a chair for Mendel, and he sat down and said:--
"How are you feeling?"
"Pretty weak. I dreamed of your coming, but I didn't really believe
it. . . . I've done it, you know."
"Yes."
"What are you doing?"
"I've painted another portrait of my mother. A good one, this time.
She is sitting in a wooden chair as she always sits, with her hands
folded on her stomach. And I am planning a picture of a Jewish market,
something bigger than I have attempted yet."
"I see. Good--good. . . . We must work together. We can do it now."
"Yes," said Mendel, rather mystified. It was very strange to have
Logan talking like that, as though he were going back to the first
days of their friendship.
"It is such peace," said Logan; and indeed he looked as if he were at
peace, lying there so still and white, with the hard strain gone from
his eyes, in which there was none of the old roguish twinkle, but an
expression of pain through which there shone a penetrating and most
tender light.
"Peace," murmured Logan again. "Tell me more. There is only art."
"There is nothing else," answered Mendel, carried away on the impulse
of Logan's spirit and understanding what he meant when he said "we."
Life, the turbulent life of every day, the life of desire, was broken
and had fallen away from him, so that he was living without desire,
only in his enduring will, which had lost patience with his desires
and had destroyed them.
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