Artists -- Fiction; English fiction -- 20th century; Jews -- England -- London -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
FLUNG into the art school, he was like a leggy colt in a new field,
very shy of it at first, of the trees in the hedges, of the shadows
cast by the trees. This place was very different from the Polytechnic.
There were fewer old ladies, and more boys of his own age. The
teachers were Professors, and the pupils held them in awe and respect.
There were real models in the life-class, male and female, and the
students, male and female, worked together. No ginger-beer bottles
here, where art was a practical business. The school existed for the
purpose of teaching the craft of making pictures, and its law was that
the basis of the mystery was drawing.
Mendel's first attitude towards the other students was that he was
there to beat them all. He would swell with eagerness and enthusiasm,
and tell himself that he had something that they all lacked. He would
watch their movements, their heads bending over their work, their
hands scratching away at the paper, and he could see that they had
none of them the vigour that was in himself. And by way of showing how
much stronger he was he would use his pencil almost as though it were
a chisel and his paper a block of stone out of which he was to carve
the likeness of the model. He was rudely taken down when the Professor
stood and stared with his melancholy eyes at his production and
said:--
"Is that the best you can do?"
"Yes."
"Why do it?"
This was a stock phrase of the Professor's, but Mendel did not know
that, and he was ashamed and outraged when the class tittered.
"No," said the Professor. "I don't know what that is. It certainly
isn't drawing." And with his pencil he made a lovely easy sketch of
the model, alongside Mendel's black, forbidding scrawl. It was a
masterly thing and it baffled him, and humiliated him because the
Professor moved on to the next pupil without another word. Not another
line could Mendel draw that day. He sat staring at the Professor's
sketch and at his own drawing, which, while he had been doing it, had
meant so much to him, and he still preferred his own. The Professor's
drawing had no meaning for him. He could not understand it, except
that it was accurate. That he could see, but then his own was accurate
too, and true to what he had seen. The light gave the model a
distorted shoulder, and he had laboured to render that distortion,
which the Professor had either ignored or had corrected.
Mendel cut out the Professor's drawing and took it home and copied it
over and over again, but still he could not understand it. He was in
despair and told Golda he would never learn.
"I shall never learn to draw, and the Christian kops will all beat
me," he said.
"But they sent you to the school because you can draw. Didn't Mr.
Froitzheim say that you could draw!"
"The Professor looks at me with his gloomy face, like an undertaker
asking for the body, and he says: 'I mean to say, that isn't drawing.
It isn't impressionism. I don't know what it is.'"
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