Artists -- Fiction; English fiction -- 20th century; Jews -- England -- London -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
"We were so happy, the four of us together. Every evening we met and
we were like kings. Everything that we wanted to do we did. We had
money and success and all such foolish things, and we worked hard, all
of us. There were not in London four young men like us, and I was free
of the terrible people who wanted to turn me into an ordinary
successful painter--a portrait painter. I tell you, I have never had a
commission in my life that was not a failure. I only wanted to be
young and to work, for I had never been young before. And then
suddenly, out of nothing, my friends turned on me and told me I was a
Jew and uneducated, and ought to treat them with more respect. Why?
The Jews are good people, and what do I want with education? Can books
teach me how to paint? I tell you the Jews are good people."
Tea was brought up on a lacquer tray--bread, jam, and cake. They were
both hungry and fell to with a will, hardly speaking at all.
When they had finished they began to talk of pictures and of the lives
of the painters, and he told her stories of Michael Angelo and
Rembrandt: how Michael Angelo never took his boots off, and was never
in love in his life; and how Rembrandt was practically starved to
death. Then he showed her reproductions of Cranach and Dürer, whom at
the time he adored, and they bent over them, the chestnut head and the
curly black together. Gradually she led him on to tell of his own
life, and he began at the beginning in Austria, holding her
spell-bound with his vivid, picturesque talk.
"It makes me feel very quiet and dull," she said. "I don't think I
ever regarded places outside England as real, somehow. There was just
home and London, and London seemed to be the end of everything. All
the trains stop there, you know."
"Where is your home?" he asked.
"In Sussex. It is very beautiful country."
"How did you come to the Detmold?"
"A girl at home had been there, and at school they said I was no good
at anything but drawing. Indeed, I was sent away from two schools, and
at home I was such a trouble that mother decided I must do something
to earn my living. So I was sent up to the Detmold. I had my hair down
my back then."
"I remember," said he. "In a plait."
She smiled with pleasure at that.
"Yes," she said. "In a plait. I lived in a hostel, where they bullied
me because I was so untidy and was always being late for meals. At
home, you know, there were only my brothers, and my mother could never
keep them in order, and I was always treated as if I was a boy too.
. . . And I think that's all."
She ended so lamely that his irritation got the better of him, and he
jumped to his feet. It seemed to him that his view of the "top-knots"
was confirmed. They were simply negligible. He was baffled, and stood
staring down at her. Was she no more interested in herself than that?
Comparing the smooth monotony of her life with his, he waxed
impatient, and told himself he was a fool to have invited her to come
to him.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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