Artists -- Fiction; English fiction -- 20th century; Jews -- England -- London -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
She shivered at the grotesqueness of his words as she sank back into
her normal mood of happy diffidence. His face wore an expression of
black anger as he darted quick, furious glances at her. Here was
something that he did not understand, something that defied his
mastery, and when she smiled he thought it was at himself, and this
strange power that had been behind her appeared to him as a mocking,
teasing spirit. Let it mock, let it tease! He was strong enough to
defy it. Sweep through a green girl it might, but he was not to be
caught by it. He knew better. In him it had tough simplicity to deal
with and a will that had broken the confinement of Fate, the limits of
a meagre religion, to bend before no authority but that of art. . . .
He was rather contemptuous, too. Nothing as yet had resisted his
genius, and he felt it within him stronger than ever, a river with a
thousand sources. Block one channel and it would find another. Stop
that and it would find yet another.
Yet here he knew was no direct, no open menace, only the intolerable
suggestion that there were other streams, other sources, and the
suggestion had come from this foolish, empty girl.
"I will not have it," he said half aloud.
"What did you say?" she asked.
"Nothing. I was thinking--I was thinking that there is nothing so good
as London. They tried to send me to Italy, but I know that there is
nothing so good as London for life, and where life is, there is art. I
don't want your pretty places and your pretty feelings. I want to go
through the streets and to see the girls in the evening leaving the
shops, and the men in their bowler-hats looking at the girls and
wanting them, and the fat men in their motor-cars, and the bookstalls
on the railway stations, and the public-houses with their rows of
bottles and the white handles of the beer machines, and the plump
barmaids, and the long, straight streets going on for ever with the
flat houses on either side of them, and the markets and the
timber-yards and the tall chimneys. It all fills your mind and makes
patterns and whirling thoughts that take a spiral shape, going up and
up to mysterious heights. I want all that, and nothing shall take it
from me, do you hear?"
He turned on her ferociously, as though she were trying to rob him.
"And inside it all is something solid," he went on. "Do you know that
my father never loved but one woman in all his life? That's what Jews
are. They know what's solid. If they have to stay in the filth to keep
it, then they'll stay in the filth. And because I'm a Jew I'm not to
be caught with your pretty things and your little fancies. I shall
paint the things I understand, and I'll leave the clouds and the
rainbows and the roofs and chimneys to fools like Mitchell."
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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