English fiction -- 20th century; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Murder -- Fiction; Short stories, English; Teenagers -- Fiction
I’ve had a version of that scene from each one of them, and on the
whole the accounts tally, although of course each viewed it--as they
viewed everything--exclusively from the personal angle.
My mother saw only a young, beautiful, misunderstood woman, goaded to
frenzy in the grip of an uncongenial marriage, taking a desperate step
in search of freedom. And then, even stronger and more touching in her
relinquishment, finding the courage, for love of her child, to return
to the house of bondage.
And my grandmother, with equal inevitability, saw only a sorrow-worn
woman, no longer young (but infinitely interesting), courageously
undertaking a solitary journey, on a mission that should restore
sanctity to a shattered home. And even as her urgent plea had shaken
Robert’s defences, so her eloquence, her boundless influence and
unfaltering understanding, must prevail with the slighter, more trivial
personality of her daughter. The achievement of persuading Mary to
return to her husband and child was, my grandmother told me, the
ultimate justification of her existence, in her own eyes.
As a matter of fact, I doubt if she, any more than the rest of us, felt
her existence to be in any need of justification whatsoever--but she
was addicted to phrases, and this one at least served as an indication
to the magnitude of her effort.
For Mary did not capitulate without a struggle. And it is in the
details of that struggle that my reconstruction work comes in, for
although each of the protagonists has quoted to me whole sentences,
and even speeches, of brilliant oratory from herself and inadequate
rejoinder from the other, I do not believe either of them. Accuracy,
with that type, can never co-exist with emotion--and emotion, real or
imaginary, is never absent.
But this, I imagine, is more or less what took place in the
sitting-room of the tiny _albergo_ at Assisi:
“I’ve come to fetch you home, my child. You shall never hear one word
of reproach--Robert only wants to begin again--a new life.”
“Never, mother. It’s impossible. I’ve borne too much. I can’t ever go
back to it. I must live my own life.”
(Probably Mary had been reading _The Doll’s House_. People were
discovering Ibsen in those days.)
“Mary, it’s not five years since you and Robert were married, in the
little country church at home, by our dear old vicar, who held you at
the font when I took you, a tiny baby, to be christened.”
It may have been at this stage that Mary began to cry. Anyway, I’m
certain that my grandmother did. Any allusions, however irrelevant, to
little country churches at home, and Mary as a tiny baby, were always
apt to bring the tears to her eyes--and I’m sure that neither of them
had thought for an instant of steadying their nerves by sitting down to
a solid meal. So that tears must have been easier, even, than usual.
“Robert doesn’t understand me--he never will.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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