The silver-haired lady bent over him again, both caressingly and
proudly. "Michael, dear Michael," she said, with a soft thrill in her
voice, "I love you and honor you for it. I can FEEL what it costs you.
My darling, I know how hard you have to fight against it. I could see
you fighting against it to-day; and I was proud of the way you
struggled with it, single-handed, till you gained the victory."
Trevennack drew himself up still more haughtily than before. "And who
should struggle against the devil," he said, "single-handed as you say,
and gain the victory at last, if not I, myself, Lucy?"
He said it like some great one. His wife soothed his hand again and
repressed a sigh. She was a great-hearted lady, that brave wife and
mother, who bore her own trouble without a word spoken to anyone; but
she must sigh, at least, sometimes; it was such a relief to her pent-up
feelings. "Who indeed?" she said, acquiescent. "Who indeed, if not you?
And I love you best when you conquer so, Michael."
Trevennack looked down upon her with a strange tender look on his face,
in which gentleness and condescension were curiously mingled. "Yes," he
answered, musing; "for dear Cleer's sake I will always keep my peace
about it. I'll say not a word. I'll never tell anybody. And yet it's
hard to keep it in; very hard, indeed. I have to bind myself round, as
it were, with bonds of iron. The secret will almost out of itself at
times. As this morning, for example, when that young fellow wanted to
know why St. Michael always clung to such airy pinnacles. How jauntily
he talked about it, as if the reason for the selection were a matter of
no moment! How little he seemed to think of the Prince of the
Archangels!"
"But for Cleer's sake, darling, you kept it in," Mrs. Trevennack said,
coaxingly; "and for Cleer's sake you'll keep it in still--I know you
will; now won't you?"
Trevennack looked the picture of embodied self-restraint. His back was
rigid. "For Cleer's sake I'll keep it in," he said, firmly. "I know how
important it is for her. Never in this world have I breathed a word of
it to any living soul but you; and never in this world I will. The rest
wouldn't understand. They'd say it was madness."
"They would," his wife assented very gravely and earnestly. "And that
would be so bad for Cleer's future prospects. People would think you
were out of your mind; and you know how chary young men are nowadays of
marrying a girl when they believe or even suspect there's insanity in
the family. You can talk of it as much and as often as you like to ME,
dear Michael. I think that does you good. It acts as a safety-valve. It
keeps you from bottling your secret up in your own heart too long, and
brooding over it, and worrying yourself. I like you to talk to ME of it
whenever you feel inclined. But for heaven's sake, darling, to nobody
else. Not a hint of it for worlds. The consequences might be terrible."
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