Milly: At Love's Extremes; A Romance of the SouthlandThompson, Maurice
Philosophy
Milly: At Love's Extremes; A Romance of the Southland
Thompson, Maurice
Southern States -- Fiction
Mrs. Ransom appeared to be lighter-hearted than at any other time
since the adventure at the ruin. Her face was touched with a
charming color and she followed Lapham's shallow chatter with smiling
attention. It was from her that Reynolds finally caught the ability
to forget himself and to fall into the spirit that ruled the rest of
the company. Once engaged, he put forth his powers with good effect.
For Lapham's benefit he described the Derby and the _Grand Prix_, a
pigeon shoot in England where the stake was a thousand pounds,
angling in Scotland and some hunting adventures in Algiers. From
sport he easily drifted to art and from art into the ever wonderful
and fascinating scenery of Switzerland and Italy. It was Agnes who
led him on to speak of Paris and Rome, the two cities of every young
woman's dream. She was full of the thought of going with him to the
old world. It was intoxicating her. How far away it would be--that
life beyond the sea--from the dreary, sorrowful pool of her narrow
and bitter experience! That night in the quiet of her chamber she
thought it all over, and she was dreaming of it when next morning the
mocking-birds awoke her. Reynolds, too, went to his room with an
almost light heart. From his window he saw Lapham, with a little
sail set, go up the river before the night breeze, in the light of a
crescent moon that hung over in the west.
"I will return to Birmingham to-morrow," he thought. He was in haste
to get his affairs all arranged and then come back and persuade Agnes
to name the earliest day possible for their marriage. He felt a
mighty impatience, as if each moment endangered the cup of happiness
now bubbling at his lips.
But the thought of going back to the mountains chilled him. Why need
he go at all? Why should any sordid consideration enter into the
discussion of his plans? Had he not already shut out of his life the
dreamy hermitage and all that pertained to it? He tried to imagine a
line drawn across the past at a point on this side of all his
unprofitable experiences, a line over which he would teach his memory
not to cross. Could he not, by a supreme effort of will, tear wholly
away from his old self, as from a chrysalis sheath, purify himself
and spend the rest of his days in the summer atmosphere of a calm and
peaceful life? How it tormented him to perceive his lack of genuine
courage and sincerity in this exacting crisis! He tried not to know
that his new hopes and desires were not borne up by an underswell of
true repentance. The selfishness of mere regret and remorse taunted
him insidiously, whilst the happiness that beckoned him on was
tricked in sensuous tinsel-tints, the exponents of a very low power
of good. He struggled fiercely, silently, fighting down in detail
the troops of phantoms that beset him. Finally he cheated himself
into believing, or feigning to believe, that he had gained the
victory. The field is clear, he thought, I am a man once more.
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