Miscellaneous Studies; a series of essaysPater, Walter
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Miscellaneous Studies; a series of essays
Pater, Walter
Essays
His reprieve however lasted long enough, after all, for a certain
change of opinion of immense weight to him--a revision or reversal of
judgment. It came about in this way. When peace was arranged, with
question of rewards, pensions, and the like, certain battles or
incidents therein were fought over again, sometimes in the highest
places of debate. On such an occasion a certain speaker cites the case
of Lieutenant James Stokes and another, as being "pessimi exempli":
whereupon a second speaker gets up, prepared with full detail, insists,
brings that incidental matter to the front for an hour, tells his
unfortunate friend's story so effectively, pathetically, that, as
happens with our countrymen, they repent. The matter gets into the
newspapers, and, coming thus into sympathetic public view, something
like glory wins from Emerald Uthwart his last touch of animation. Just
not too late he received the offer of a commission; kept the letter
there open within sight. Aldy, who "never shed tears and was incapable
of pain," in his great physical weakness, wept--shall we say for the
second time in his life? A less excitement would have been more
favorable to any chance there might be of the patient's surviving. In
fact the old gun-shot wound, wrongly thought to be cured, which had
caused [243] the one illness of his life, is now drawing out what
remains of it, as he feels with a kind of odd satisfaction and
pride--his old glorious wound! And then, as of old, an absolute
submissiveness comes over him, as he gazes round at the place, the
relics of his uniform, the letter lying there. It was as if there was
nothing more that could be said. Accounts thus settled, he stretched
himself in the bed he had occupied as a boy, more completely at his
ease than since the day when he had left home for the first time.
Respited from death once, he was twice believed to be dead before the
date actually registered on his tomb. "What will it matter a hundred
years hence?" they used to ask by way of simple comfort in boyish
troubles at school, overwhelming at the moment. Was that in truth part
of a certain revelation of the inmost truth of things to "babes," such
as we have heard of? What did it matter--the gifts, the good-fortune,
its terrible withdrawal, the long agony? Emerald Uthwart would have
been all but a centenarian to-day.
Postscript, from the Diary of a Surgeon, August --th, 18--.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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