Miss Ayr of Virginia, & other storiesMagruder, Julia
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Miss Ayr of Virginia, & other stories
Magruder, Julia
Short stories, American; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
As he sat there, watching the cold flutter of the dingy white canvas
that covered the life-boat, made fast in front of him, and which was
shaken into strong ripples by the winter wind, making a crackling
little noise, he liked to think that they both saw and heard the same
things, and he longed to ask her if the ridiculous little cannon, with
its canvas cover, did not remind her of a child on all fours, under a
table-cloth, playing _bogy_. Why couldn’t he have a little innocent
talk with her? The restrictions imposed by society seemed to him most
absurd.
He became aware that the people between him and the object of his
thoughts were, one by one, going away. At last, a man and a woman
sitting next to him got up and went below, and now, with a quickening
of the heart, he realised that the being nearest him, across that row
of empty chairs, was the girl whose image had now out-crowded every
other from his heart. The maid was on the other side of her, but they
were both quite silent. Presently he ventured to turn his head and look
toward her. Only her pure profile was in view, but he felt that she saw
with her averted eyes that he was looking at her. Her rounded cheek
seemed to return his gaze, and he was almost certain that it reddened.
Of course, he might be mistaken in thinking that she had any
consciousness of his existence. He had no real evidence of the fact,
but the unreal was enough for him. He was always frank, in dealing with
himself, though often the reverse of it, in interpreting himself to
others. For instance, he had always carefully concealed the fact that
he was, by nature, sentimental and romantic; but he knew it of himself
absolutely. He was not at all surprised to find himself, now, in love
with a woman to whom he had never spoken. It had always belonged to his
old ideal of himself that he should love at first sight, if he ever
loved at all, in the real sense. This girl--if her nature and character
corresponded to her personality--was absolutely all that he ever
dreamed of; and he had not a fear that, in knowing her, he should find
himself disappointed. Indeed, what he felt was, that he absolutely knew
her already. It gave him a slight twinge of regret to think she must be
so many years younger than himself--it must be ten or twelve, for she
could not be over twenty-two or twenty-three. But then she was a being
with whom he might renew his youth--indeed, she had already called into
fiery life all the most ardent impulses of his earliest manhood. He
had made up his mind now that he would make it his first business, on
landing, to get himself formally introduced to her. He had satisfied
himself, by marks on their luggage, that their destination was New
York, so he knew he was not in danger of losing sight of them. They
were sure to belong to his own world, and he knew he could easily make
their acquaintance. As he sat there, so near her that by a slight turn
of the head he could see her, he felt impatient at the formalities
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