Miss Ayr of Virginia, & other storiesMagruder, Julia
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Miss Ayr of Virginia, & other stories
Magruder, Julia
Short stories, American; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Of course, he did not fancy anything so absurd as that he was in love
with this young girl, whose face and nearness so possessed him; that
was out of the question. But what he did feel was that a quality in her
face had roused to new being a certain ideal which had once held him,
and which in recent years had been losing its hold.
Randall had an ardent and romantic nature, subdued by circumstance
and rearing into conventional conformity. The passion of his life
was music, and although he was a more or less earnest and successful
lawyer, the hearing of good music and the cultivation of his own
musical gift was the strongest interest of his life. His friends
wondered that he had not married, and, to tell the truth, he wondered
at that fact as much as they. If they were ignorant of his reason
though, he, himself, was not. He knew well that it was because he had,
so far in life, met no woman whose nature and personality made the
appeal to him, and satisfied the desire of his soul, in the way that
music appealed to and satisfied him, and what he wondered at was, that
in all his wide acquaintance he had never seen this woman. He had grown
tired of looking for her, at last, and had even deliberately considered
the advisability of marrying a person who would have compelled a
lowering of his ideal. A real, definite woman had been considered in
this light, a woman with beauty, good breeding, position, and money,
whom he thought he might win; but this woman not only was not musical
herself, but she contradicted the ideal which seemed to go hand in hand
with music in his soul.
No, certainly he was not in love with this opposite neighbor of his,
but the remarkable effect which she had had upon him was to rouse in
him the belief of the possibility of realizing this vanished ideal.
There was something in her that seemed to tell him that what he had
dreamed of might still be. It was her face only that had done this. He
had not seen the outline of her figure, for that had been concealed by
a long black cloak, that was loose from neck to hem. And even more than
this, he had not heard her voice. Randall had always conceived that
his ideal woman would sing, though that was not a necessity with him,
but he was so susceptible to the influence of sound that a coarse, or
nasal, or discordant voice, even in speaking, would have killed the
most fiery love that charm or beauty could arouse. He suddenly felt a
great desire to know if this exquisite girl could sing, or to hear her
speak. It was not so much an emotional stirring of love which she had
aroused in him, as a sort of spirit of intellectual investigation. He
knew that she had a face that might belong to his ideal woman, and he
wondered if her voice would carry out the idea.
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