"Well, _I_ believe what I’m told," said Montagu somewhat aggrieved by
this unsympathetic attitude on the part of his old friend. "That’s what
makes me so uncomfortable. If I didn’t believe it, sir, it wouldn’t
matter."
"I assure you, Montagu, if you ask Miss Esperance, or Mr. Gloag,
himself—he is a most sensible man on the whole—they will both tell you
that it is absurd for you to worry yourself about Hell. You don’t know
anything about your own religion yet, far less that of the Epicureans.
But now I want you to listen to me very attentively for I have something
serious to say to you. You may take absolutely on trust, either upon
this or upon any other subject, anything that Miss Esperance may tell
you. She is a far safer guide than I, or Mr. Gloag, or indeed any one
that you know. And above all, I beg you to try even harder with
whatever lessons she may set you, than you do with mine. You must try
to please her, to make her happy...."
Mr. Wycherly paused and cleared his throat, the earnest, puzzled face
looking up into his grew suddenly dim, and the little boy felt his
tutor’s hand tighten on his own, as he asked suddenly, "Montagu, have
you ever seen anybody drunk?"
"Yes, lots of times: they look horrid, and walk crookedly and have
hoarse voices, the people on the road to Leith are often drunk."
"There was once a man, Montagu, who got into the habit of drinking more
than was good for him. How and why he got into that habit does not
matter, it was at all events no excuse.
"He grew worse and worse—I don’t think he ever looked quite like the
people you mention, but I don’t know. His brain was going, his friends
were ashamed of him, there seemed no place for him in this world, and
how should he dare face the next? He was not altogether a stupid man,
he knew many things, and best of all that the weakness he encouraged was
a fatal weakness, but he seemed to have no strength of mind or body to
pull himself together till an angel from heaven took him into her house
and helped him, and protected him against himself—till he was cured. It
was not done quickly, and God, who gave her her great heart, alone knows
what she had to bear in the doing of it."
Mr. Wycherly paused, he felt Montagu’s body tremble between his knees,
but the child did not speak, and the broken voice went on, "The angel
was your aunt, Montagu, and I, I was the man. And the last time I was
drunk, your father, not much older than you are now, brought me home."
The clock ticked loudly, and a thrush was singing on the alder tree
outside. There was no other sound in the room till Montagu, moved to a
sudden passion of tears, flung himself forward into his old friend’s
arms, clasping him round the neck and exclaiming between his sobs, "What
does it matter? Why did you tell me? I didn’t think I _could_ love you
any more, but I do, I do, I do!"
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