Miss Ravenel's conversion from secession to loyaltyDe Forest, John William
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Miss Ravenel's conversion from secession to loyalty
De Forest, John William
Historical fiction; United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Fiction; War stories; Women -- United States -- Fiction
There came a day to Lillie during which she lay between two worlds, not
caring which she entered, submissive to whatever might be, patient
though weeping with pain. Her father did not dare trust her to his own
care, but called in his old friend and colleague, Doctor Elderkin. These
two, with Carter, Mrs. Larue, and a hired nurse, did not quit the house
for twenty-four hours, and all but the husband and father were almost
constantly in the room of the invalid. The struggle was so long and
severe that they thought it would end in death. Neither Mrs. Larue nor
the nurse slept during the whole night, but relieved each other at the
bedside, holding by turns the quivering, clutching hand of Lillie, and
fanning the crimson cheeks and the brow covered with a cold sweat as of
a death agony. The latent womanliness of Mrs. Larue, the tenderness
which did actually exist in some small measure beneath her smooth
surface of amiability and coquetry, was profoundly stirred by her
instinctive sympathy for a suffering which was all feminine. She
remembered that same anguish in her own life, and lived it over again.
Every throe of the sick girl seemed to penetrate her own body. She
thought of the child which had been given and taken years ago, and then
she wiped away a tear, lest Lillie might see it and fear for herself.
When she was not by the bedside she stood at the window, now looking for
a glimpse of dawn as if that could bring any hope, and then turning to
gaze at the tossing invalid.
The Doctor only once allowed Carter to enter the room. The very
expansion of Lillie at sight of him, the eagerness with which her soul
reached out to him for help, pity, love, was perilous. There was danger
that she might say, "My dear, good-bye;" and in the exaltation of such
an impulse she might have departed. As for him, he had never before
witnessed a scene like this, and he never forgot it. His wife held both
his hands, clasping them spasmodically, a broad spot of fever in either
cheek, the veins of her forehead swollen, and her neck suffused, her
eyes preternaturally open and never removed from his, her whole
expression radiant with agony. The mortal pain, the supernatural
expectation, the light of that other world which was so near,
spiritualized her face, and made it unhumanly beautiful. He seemed to
himself to be standing on earth and joining hands with her in heaven. He
had never before reached so far; never so communed with another life.
His own face was all of this world, stern with anxiety and perhaps
remorse; for the moment was so agitating and imperious that he could not
direct his emotions nor veil his expression. Happy for her that she had
no suspicion of one thing which was in his heart. She believed that he
was solely tortured by fear that she would die; and if she could have
thought to speak, she would have comforted him. On her own account she
did not desire to live; only for his sake, and for her father's, and
perhaps a little for her child's.
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