Great Britain -- History -- Charles II, 1660-1685 -- Fiction; Historical fiction
But it was not so for the most part. He hated the houses in their
common, hard aspect of nearness and oppression. Only when the rain
fell thickly, spouting from their eaves and gutters, and half hiding
them behind a veil of dropping water, or when the snow, clinging to
their sills and window-frames, seemed to cut them into sugared
sections, could he endure to look on them without impatience. They
were the jealous barriers which imprisoned him from the infinite. Some
boys, so conditioned, would have found their main pathetic interest in
such sights and sounds of outer life as might penetrate to them in
their isolation. It was not so with him. His spirit, like an entombed
flower, yearned always towards the light, stretching pallidly in a
vain passion to attain the blue heaven of health and freedom.
Perhaps, strange little soul, he was happiest in those long moonlit
nights when, the curtains being drawn about the lower casement, he and
his jewelled book of stories in the window were left alone together.
Then he would lie for hours, quite motionless, as if hypnotized, his
eyes fixed on the dimly luminous scroll, dreaming what unearthly
dreams only the painted heads themselves might tell. He liked to hear
the watchman crying out the hours, hollow and mysterious, in the
streets below; he loved to see by day the not unrare vision of a
pigeon pecking and preening on his window-sill, or the shadow of a
hopping sparrow cross the panes. Those were his events, until the harp
came. And then all at once he was transformed. Some long-dumb chord in
his soul leaped and vibrated to the rapture with a force that shook
the life out of him. I think that was the truth. He died to all
intents of joy. The frail frame could not stand the exquisite tension
of the bliss evoked in it.
Now, in the days of that brief friendship, scarce one day passed but
found the boy and man at some time together. There was no more
midnight playing; but Bannister would look in as occasion offered, and
mostly with his instrument accompanying. Then there would be sweet
music a spell, and talk a spell, and perhaps unutterable silences to
link them. Somehow it suggested the soul affinity, formal but
transcendent, between a dying saint and his confessor. There was a
subtle thrill in the atmosphere, of which all were
conscious--Bannister himself, the father, the woman with the hard,
pathetic face, whose eyes were always hidden by her hand when she was
privileged to listen to the music. They felt it like an unseen
presence--a sense of warning, of change, as when one feels spring
moving in the grass under one’s feet. And not one would own to itself
that it knew. Yet they all knew.
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