United States -- History -- French and Indian War, 1754-1763 -- Fiction
But my pitiful little oath was all bluster and impotent defiance. I
was as helpless as a squirming puppy held by the neck. I ran like a
madman, but I ran the wrong way. The invisible crew passed me, and
their voices faded. I heard them melt, melt into nothing. A sound, an
impression,--that had been all. Not even a gray shadow on the fog to
show that I had not been dreaming. I looked at my skinned knuckles and
disordered clothes, and a strange feeling shook me. A certain rashness
of temperament had all my life made me contemptuous of fear. But this
was different. I tried to laugh at myself, but could not.
It was a simple matter to retrace my route, for I had left a trail like
a behemoth's. And one thought I chewed all the way back to the meadow.
If I could have done it over again I should have called, and so have
drawn whatever thing it was toward me. That would have been dangerous,
and I might have paid the forfeit of a head that was not my own to part
with, but at least I should have seen what thing it was that passed me
in the fog. There began to be something that was not wholly sound and
sane in the depth of my feeling that I ought, at whatever cost, to have
confronted that noise and forced it to declare itself.
When I came to the meadow it was wet and spectral. The fog had lifted
somewhat and now the air was curiously luminous. It appeared
transparent, as if the vision could pierce far-stretching reaches, but
when I tried to peer ahead I found my glance baffled a few feet away.
It was as if the world ended suddenly, exhaled in grayness, just beyond
the reach of my hand. It made objects remote and unreal and singularly
shining. I looked toward the sycamore, and my heart beat fast for a
moment, for I thought that a pool of fresh blood lay in the grass where
the woman and I had sat the day before. But I looked again and saw
that it was only the bunch of red lilies that she had plucked and worn
and thrown away. I had told her that their red was the color of war,
and she had let them drop to the ground. I went to them and picked
them up, and they left heavy, scarlet stains upon my fingers.
When I went to the canoe I found it still damp, but I uncovered it and
went to work to do what I could with the frayed seams. An unreasoning
haste had possession of me, and I worked fumblingly and badly, like a
man with fear behind him. Yet I was not afraid. I was consumed by the
feeling that I must get back to camp and to the woman without delay.
Kneeling to my work with my back to the forest, strange noises came
behind and begged attention. But I would not look up. I had had
enough of visions and whisperings and a haunted wood. I wanted my
canoe and my paddle and a chance to shoot straight and to get home.
For already I thought of the camp as home, and of this meadow as a
place where I had been held for a long time. It was a strange morning.
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