Last night it rained, and Charles’s overcoat was a little wet at the bottom. He asked that it might be put to the fire. Directly he came down in the morning he felt his coat and at breakfast said in his slow way, ‘My coat has not been dried.’ I replied that I was very sorry, that I had quite forgotten it, and that it should be dried before he was ready to start. I jumped up, brought it into the room and hung it on a chair on the hearth-rug. He did not thank me and appeared to take no notice. ‘I am indeed very sorry,’ I repeated. He then spoke. ‘I do not care about the damp: it is the principle involved. I have observed that you do not endeavour systematically to impress my requests on your mind. If you were to take due note of them at the time they are made, and say them aloud two or three times to yourself, they would not escape your memory. Forgetfulness is never an excuse in business, and I do not see why it should be at home.’ ‘O Charles!’ I cried, ‘do not talk about principles in such a trifle; I simply forgot. I should be more likely to forget my cloak than your coat.’ He did not answer me, but opened a couple of letters, finished his breakfast, and then began to write at the desk. I went upstairs, and when I returned to the breakfast room he had gone. In the evening he behaved as if nothing had passed between us. He would have thought it ridiculous if such a reproof had unsettled a clerk at the bank, and why should it unsettle me? The clerk expects to be taught his lesson daily. So does every rational being. Nothing! nothing! I can imagine Mrs. Perkins’ contempt if I were to confide in her. ‘As good a husband as ever lived. What do you want, you silly creature? I suppose it’s what they call passion. You should have married a poet. You have made an uncommonly good match and ought to be thankful.’ A poet! I know nothing of poets, but I do know that if marriage for passion be folly, there is no true marriage without it. * * * * * BLACKDEEP, 7_th_ _February_ 1839. I am no clearer now than I was a fortnight ago. I wish I could talk to somebody, and then perhaps my thoughts would settle themselves. Last Sunday I made up my mind I would come to you at all costs; then I doubted, and this morning again I was going to start at once. Now my doubts have returned. Jim notices how worried I am, and I make excuses. I cannot rest while I am not able to do more than put you off by praying you to bear your lot patiently. It is so hard to stand helpless and counsel patience. Could you give him up and live here? I am held back, though, from this at present. I am not sure what might happen if you were to leave him. Perhaps he would be able to force you to return. You have no charge to make against him which anybody but myself would understand.