Morley Ernstein; or, the Tenants of the Heart — John Shaqi
Morley Ernstein; or, the Tenants of the HeartJames, G. P. R. (George Payne Rainsford)
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Morley Ernstein; or, the Tenants of the Heart
James, G. P. R. (George Payne Rainsford)
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"Nay, nay," said Morley, "I have heard of such disclaimers before, my
good friend, and know that some men always put good actions upon
selfish motives, when they perform them themselves. But the way I
distinguish is, to ask whether, abstracted from the pleasure of doing
good, this man or that, who denies the merit of all he has done, would
have so acted. This man jumps into a river, to save a child from
drowning; that visits a prison, to give comfort to a sick man--would
the one have plunged into the water with his clothes on merely for
amusement, or the other have spent an hour in the prison if no sick
man had been there? If the pleasure felt be derived solely from the
goodness of the action, the man who experiences it is a good man, and
well deserving the gratitude and admiration of his fellows. You saved
my life, the landlord informs me, by dragging we out of the carriage
while it was under water, and--"
"Yes, that is true," replied his companion, half laughing; "I did.
indeed, as Sheridan called it, play the Newfoundland dog, when I found
you were likely to be drowned unless assisted; but that is all, and
surely that is little enough. I have done the same for a fly in a
cream jug."
"But you have never stayed three weeks in a country inn," answered
Morley, smiling, "to nurse a fly in a fever; and for that, at least,
you deserve my deepest gratitude."
"Not at all!" answered his friend--"not at all! Even on your own
principles, you owe me no thanks. I never thought whether I was doing
a good action or not. In regard to the first of your mighty
obligations, that of staying three weeks in a country inn, it might
truly have been a great tax upon me under some circumstances; but just
at that time, I had nothing on earth to do. I was going back to London
out of pure weariness of the place I was in; for in general, I never
am in town before the first or second of June. Here I have had fine
air, fine scenery, and a fine trout-stream. What would you have more?
Then as to watching and taking care of you in your delirium, I have no
merit there: the truth is, I am fond of all strong emotions, and the
watching you, the wondering whether you would live or die, the changes
of your countenance, the gray shade that would sometimes come over
your face, the flush of fever, the restless tossing to and fro--and
then, again, the gambling, as it were, each moment in my own mind for
your life?-all this was surely excitement enough. Besides your
delirium was worth any money. There is something so strange and
fantastic in the ravings of a man in fever--very much more curious and
metaphysical than mere madness. In madness, one always finds one
strong predominant idea; but in delirium it is as if all the ideas of
a lifetime were mixed in one wild chaos. Nor Talma, nor Schroeder, nor
Malibran, could have afforded me so much interest as you in your
delirium."
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