The elder man dropped his hands from the other’s shoulder, and turned
away with a sigh. Whether it was the half-inspired look which at that
moment came into Arthur’s face, or the resemblance of that face to
another, or the superiority over himself of this boy whom he had been
lecturing, and whom he had lectured so often--whatever it was, he turned
away, with something that made his sight more uncertain than ever,
rising in his eyes.
“Then I can’t say anything to you,” he said, in a voice tremulous with
feeling. “I can say nothing to you! I would not meddle with that, right
or wrong, were it to cost me mine.”
“Yours, old fellow?” cried Arthur, in the effusiveness of victory.
“Hurrah for love! It’s the thing worth living for. Are you in Arcadia
too?”
Durant did not make any answer. He went to the window, and looked out
upon the dark night and the lamps flaring; and then returned to his
chair. Whatever commotion there had been in his countenance, he had got
rid of it. Neither blush nor smile was on his serious face, nor any
further manifestation of sympathy. Arthur looked at him, and burst into
excited laughter.
“You don’t look much like a fortunate shepherd,” he said. “Love! that
was a bad guess; it was law I should have said--briefs and fees, and a
silk gown at the end; that’s what moves you.”
“Ay, ay,” said the other, vaguely; “that’s what it is. Mine is not a
corresponding case. You were always luckier, brighter than I, and I
don’t grudge it you, Arthur. Your happiness (if you are happy) will be
almost as good for me as my own. But I don’t think either of them very
probable just now,” he went on, suddenly changing his tone; “that is the
fact. I am not in a good way, and, my boy, you are in a bad way. I’ll
say it once for all. You are deceiving yourself. You are the last man in
the world to do this sort of thing. You will repent it, sooner or later.
Don’t look at me as if you thought me a fool, with that supercilious
face. It is you who are the fool. You are going to do what you will wish
undone all the days of your life.”
“Durant!” cried Arthur, furious, springing from his seat, and lifting
his arm as if for a blow.
His friend stood up facing him, folding his arms. His face had flushed
with a momentary gleam of passion while he spoke. Now it stilled and
paled again, and he stood in his superior strength, looking calmly at
the slighter being whom he had roused to momentary fury. The young man’s
clenched fist fell by his side. He turned away angry, but subdued.
“No man in the world but you dare speak so,” he said, “and even from you
I will never bear it again.”
“You shall not be required,” said Durant, sadly. “I have said, once for
all, what was in my mind. Now--I know you well enough--you’ll go and do
what you want to do, Arthur, and with all the more zest. And when you
have paid for your happiness, and got to the bottom of it, you will come
to me again.”
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