This speech was particularly galling to Arthur, because he had not the
slightest intention of settling at Underhayes, and to have it taken for
granted gave him a pang which was chiefly terror. Should he be able to
resist the foregone conclusion which thus had established itself in
Nancy’s mind?
“Indeed,” he said, “I should be glad to stay at home. Indeed I don’t
mind where I am, so long as you are there too. I do not care for the
play.”
“Then what do you go for? Ah! I know, to polish me up, to teach me how
to behave, to remedy my defective education.” This was once more said in
the carriage as they were driving home.
“Nancy, you are unkind,” said Arthur, “why should you speak to me so? I
know nothing about defective education. I took you to amuse you. You
thought you would like it.”
“I did not know they were such poor sticks,” said Nancy, “I did not
suppose they would gabble their French so. The people in the shops talk
a great deal better. I never mistake them; and it worries me to look so
stupid,” she added relenting. “I should not mind for myself; but it
looks so bad for you having a wife that does not understand.”
“For me, my darling!” cried Arthur delighted. “Do I care? An evening at
home will be a great deal more pleasant; but my wife never looks stupid,
cannot look stupid,” said the foolish young man. And again all was well.
Thus the course of their honey-days went on not without fluctuations.
What he said in his foolishness, was true so far, that Nancy did not
look stupid. She looked careless, defiant, indifferent, scornful of
what she saw, as of something which was not worth the trouble even of an
effort to understand; but there was nothing stupid in her aspect at any
time, and in spite of herself, stray gleams of understanding came in to
the girl’s mind. Gleams which did not enlighten her then; but which
worked in the chaos, apart from any will of hers. Her will was all set
steadfastly the other way, to reject all possibilities of improvement,
and the idea of being educated up to her husband’s level. Was not she as
good as he to start with, was not her family as good as his family, if
not better? Not so rich, but nicer, kinder people, to be upheld in their
plainness above any attempt to pull them down. Nancy’s native energy of
mind all ran into vigorous scorn of any attempt to separate her from her
own race and identify her with his. To think of her old self in the pit,
admiring her new self triumphant in a private box was a sensation which,
all delicious as it was, originated in herself and was not betrayed to
anyone. Had Arthur seemed to think of this difference, Nancy would have
proposed at once to descend to the pit as the preferable plan. She had
made an immense ascent in the social scale by her marriage; but she
never meant to acknowledge, not if she should die for it, that the
ascent was of any consequence to her, or that it was expedient to change
her manners or her smallest actions because of it; was she not “good
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