Mrs. Dorriman: A Novel. Volume 3 of 3 — John Shaqi
Mrs. Dorriman: A Novel. Volume 3 of 3Chetwynd, Henry Wayland, Mrs.
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Mrs. Dorriman: A Novel. Volume 3 of 3
Chetwynd, Henry Wayland, Mrs.
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"Do you suppose I do not know that?" he said. "Can you not see that the
horror of it all is almost overwhelming me? I have already told you this
myself!"
"Oh, brother," said Mrs. Dorriman, remorsefully, "I did not mean ..."
Mrs. Dorriman looked ready to cry.
"It is because you do not mean it that it makes it worse. Anne," he
said, suddenly raising himself and looking at her, "if any one knew what
the word remorse meant, I think there would be less wrong-doing in the
world. _It_ is the worm that never dies, and the fire that never is
quenched." He spoke in a tone of despair and despondency, and Mrs.
Dorriman endeavoured to console him.
"You know nothing of this, brother," she said, "you should not speak so.
You never did any grievous wrong." She stopped short as a cruel pang of
recollection came to her, the haunting fear that once had possessed her.
Her face flushed and she trembled visibly.
He looked at her in silence, unable to reconcile to himself the words
she spoke, implying trust in him and the doubt expressed in her face. At
length he said in a feeble tone, which betrayed the great prostration he
was suffering from--
"We will talk another day, Anne. Perhaps when we do have that
conversation then you will feel you are free to leave me, to go to
Margaret, or any one else."
"Brother," said Mrs. Dorriman, rising and standing beside him with her
hands clasped, "I have learned to care for you now--and if in the past
anything exists that may part us--let it alone--unless," she added,
hastily, "it may be doing my husband's memory a wrong."
She spoke solemnly, and he gazed at her, earnestly.
"I believe you are a good woman, Anne, but you cannot right the one
without----"
He waved her away from him, and she, disturbed and agitated, fearing and
hoping at one and the same moment, stooped suddenly and kissed him, an
unwonted demonstration on her side, but meant as a seal to the promise
she had intended to make, and so he understood it.
Mrs. Dorriman, reserved and reticent, had one great hope in all this.
She trusted that the story which was so painful in every detail was not
known to outsiders. Nothing would seem so painful to her if only they
could keep it to themselves. She was one of those people who like to
draw her mantle round her and not show her wounds. It is the misfortune
of characters like hers that no event ever happens in connection with
their home history of an unhappy nature that they do not begin to
reproach themselves either for doing or not doing things, or for saying
or not saying something in connection with it. A want of self-confidence
often leads to a good deal of self-torment, and when she had left her
brother's room she was very unhappy, clinging to this one belief of
privacy as the one bright spot.
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