Mrs. Severn: A Novel, Vol. 1 (of 3)Carter, Mary Elizabeth
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Mrs. Severn: A Novel, Vol. 1 (of 3)
Carter, Mary Elizabeth
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They had reached the gate. Borlase fumbled with the hasp, trying to
secure a few moments for thought. He had known Anna many years and for
the greater part of that time he had loved her. But he had resolved not
to ask her to be his wife until he was his own master. At present he
was still in partnership with the leading medical man in Wonston but in
another year the partnership would expire and he would be independent
and able to offer her such a home as he could think worthy of her. When
he came to Old Lafer to-night he had not meant to precipitate matters
but now he felt urged not to miss this opportunity, wholly unexpected
and tempting as it was. He glanced at her with the resentment of
desperation. She was looking across the road into the ferny depths of an
oak planting where twilight gave the vistas a dreamy quietude. How could
she be so calm when he was so overwrought? Would she never perceive his
feeling? What a help a touch of shyness in her manner would be! He
dreaded lest speech should forfeit her friendliness and gain nothing in
its place, but still more lest his own inaction now should paralyse his
resolution and unman him.
'She shall refuse me; perhaps a second time she would accept me,' he
thought. 'Rather than that I should wrong her and myself any longer by
not facing the truth, I'll be manly and ask her outright; at any rate
it'll make her think of me.'
He opened the gate and she advanced with a smile to shake hands. He
turned abruptly. There was a look on his face which she had never
seen before. She stood transfixed, involuntarily gazing at him,
scarcely conscious that his searching look was wholly concentrated
on her and expressed an earnestness that the next moment struck her
as overwhelmingly pathetic in a man. In that moment the tension of
her figure relaxed, vivid colour rushed over her face, her eyes fell,
veiling undreamt-of tears. It was her first self-consciousness and it
stirred her unutterably, thrilled to the depths of her heart. She felt
rather than heard that he was coming near to her. She had clutched the
gate with one hand, for so sudden was the rush of this new tide of
feeling that it dizzied her, the world swam before her. His voice, with
a new tone in it whose vibration seemed to strike music into life--the
music of love, of marriage, of lifelong companionship, reached her as in
a dream. He was speaking, still with that look of ardent devotion fixed
upon her. This was no dream. She heard, she saw.
But that was all to-night.
Mrs. Severn's voice broke into the midst of his eager speech. Both heard
it and turned, startled.
'Anna, Anna!' she called.
She was standing at her open window, beckoning. Anna was alarmed, but
Borlase was suspicious.
'Don't go,' he said, seizing her hand.
'I must. She wants me.'
'Oh Anna, so do I. But 'twill be a new habit for you to want me. Well,
I'll wait.'
'Until I go and come?'
'Just so,' he said and laughed joyously.
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