Because she was beautiful she attracted many men, many flatterers, but
as they penetrated her graciousness, they came upon the hard granite of
her will and were baffled, unpleasantly disturbed, and used to leave
her, darting angry glances at the blissful Charles, who was sublimely
unconscious of criticism in those whom he approached. He accepted them
as they were or seemed to be and expected the like from them. He was
too busy, too eager, to question or to look for hidden motives in those
who supported him, and that he was concealing anything or had anything
to conceal never crossed his mind! He had other things to think of,
always new things, new plans, new schemes, and he was fundamentally not
interested in himself. A charming face, a lovely cloud in the sky, the
scent of a flower, a glass of good wine could give him such delight as
made him beam upon the world and find all things good. It was always a
trifle which sent him soaring like a singing lark, always a trifle that
could lift him from the depths of depression. Great emotion he did not
seem to need, though the concentrated emotion with which he hurled
himself at his work was tremendous. Happy is the people that has no
history. For all that he was aware of, Charles had no history. He was
born again every morning, and he could not realise that the world went
grinding on from day to day....
Never had life been so sweet, never had he been so successful, never
had he had so much money, never had he been so exquisitely cared for,
never had so many doors been open to him, never had such pleasant
things been said of him! He went to bed singing, and singing he awoke
in the morning, but in her heart Clara was anxious and suspicious of
London, most suspicious of the artists and literary men who thronged
the house, and gathered at the elaborate supper which Charles insisted
on giving every Sunday night. They were too denunciatory, too much
aloof, too proud of their aloofness, and talked too much. She thought
Charles too good for them and said so.
'Art is a brotherhood,' he said magnificently, 'and the meanest of the
brethren is my equal.'
'That is no reason why you should be familiar with them. You cheapen
yourself. Besides it is a waste of time.... A lot of people never do
anything, and--I don't like it.'
'Ho! ho! Are you in revolt, chicken?'
'I don't want you to fritter away what you have got. It isn't worth
while to spend money on people who can do nothing for you.'
'I don't want anybody to do anything for _me_. It is for art.'
'But they don't understand that. They think all sorts of wonderful
things are going to happen through you.'
'So they are.... Hasn't it been wonderful so far?'
'For us. Yes.'
'Wasn't the exhibition a great success?'
'Yes.'
'Very well then.'
'But you only sold the work you have done during the last ten years.
It is the work you are doing now that matters. What work are you
doing?'
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