My Double Life: The Memoirs of Sarah Bernhardt — John Shaqi
My Double Life: The Memoirs of Sarah BernhardtBernhardt, Sarah
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My Double Life: The Memoirs of Sarah Bernhardt
Bernhardt, Sarah
Actors -- France -- Biography; Bernhardt, Sarah, 1844-1923
One day my mother took me on her knees and said to me, “You are a big
girl now, and you must learn to read and write.” I was then seven years
old, and could neither read, write, nor count, as I had been five years
with the old nurse and two years ill. “You must go to school,” continued
my mother, playing with my curly hair, “like a big girl.” I did not know
what all this meant, and I asked what a school was.
“It’s a place where there are many little girls,” replied my mother.
“Are they ill?” I asked.
“Oh no! They are quite well, as you are now, and they play together, and
are very gay and happy.”
I jumped about in delight, and gave free vent to my joy, but on seeing
tears in my mother’s eyes I flung myself in her arms.
“But what about you, Mamma?” I asked. “You will be all alone, and you
won’t have any little girl.”
She bent down to me and said: “God has told me that He will send me some
flowers and a little baby.”
My delight was more and more boisterous. “Then I shall have a little
brother!” I exclaimed, “or else a little sister. Oh no, I don’t want
that; I don’t like little sisters.”
Mamma kissed me very affectionately, and then I was dressed, I remember,
in a blue corded velvet frock, of which I was very proud. Arrayed thus
in all my splendour, I waited impatiently for Aunt Rosine’s carriage,
which was to take us to Auteuil.
It was about three when she arrived. The housemaid had gone on about an
hour before, and I had watched with delight my little trunk and my toys
being packed into the carriage. The maid climbed up and took the seat by
the driver, in spite of my mother protesting at first against this. When
my aunt’s magnificent equipage arrived, mamma was the first to get in,
slowly and calmly. I got in when my turn came, giving myself airs,
because the concierge and some of the shopkeepers were watching. My aunt
then sprang in lightly, but by no means calmly, after giving her orders
in English to the stiff, ridiculous-looking coachman, and handing him a
paper on which the address was written. Another carriage followed ours,
in which three men were seated: Régis L——, a friend of my father’s,
General de P——, and an artist, named Fleury, I think, whose pictures of
horses and sporting subjects were very much in vogue just then.
I heard on the way that these gentlemen were to make arrangements for a
little dinner near Auteuil, to console mamma for her great trouble in
being separated from me. Some other guests were to be there to meet
them. I did not pay very much attention to what my mother and my aunt
said to each other. Sometimes when they spoke of me they talked either
English or German, and smiled at me affectionately. The long drive was
greatly appreciated by me, for with my face pressed against the window
and my eyes wide open I gazed out eagerly at the grey muddy road, with
its ugly houses on each side, and its bare trees. I thought it was all
very beautiful, because it kept changing.
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