My Experiences in a Lunatic Asylum: By a Sane Patient — John Shaqi
My Experiences in a Lunatic Asylum: By a Sane PatientMerivale, Herman Charles
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My Experiences in a Lunatic Asylum: By a Sane Patient
Merivale, Herman Charles
Insanity (Law); Mentally ill -- Care
than theirs,--I threw myself once upon my knees in the middle of the
public road, with one silent heartfelt prayer--for what? For annihilation;
for every form of possible existence seemed then to me a curse. Mad
indeed, was it not? Nor need I say how mad I was then writ down. Yet it
was within a few weeks of that time that my prayer was answered, in spite
of myself almost, as I said before, and answered with life and freedom. Is
there any one, I wonder, amongst our men in power who will be shaken by
these words in the complacent selfishness of humanity, and be no longer
content to pass those who have so fallen among thieves by on the other
side?
The lawyer was not the patriarch of the place; for there were some aged
men who had lived their lives there. One old gentleman, known as 'Daddy,'
and a favourite butt with some of the younger warders--good-naturedly
enough, perhaps; but I often felt that I should like to knock them
down--was there, I believe, in the last century, and is not quite sure
what George is on the throne. I was told that he never spoke at all for
many years, until one day--he had never smoked in his life--he was by some
means persuaded into a pipe. From that time tobacco became his solace and
delight; for that he would ask anybody, and for that alone. His little
'screw' became an institution. The silent members of our corporation were
very numerous; whether they were silent always, or whether by degrees the
habit crept upon them in that fearful mockery of companionship, will not
be known here. I have said that for the first few days of my first
imprisonment--to take up again the thread of my personal story--I was too
ill and weak to observe or to care for anything. I think that I must have
been in bed for a few days, dying alone; but that I do not remember. After
that immediate danger had passed, I must have been one of the silent for
some time; for I well remember the expression of astonishment which came
over the faces of some of the warders in attendance when a letter was one
day brought to me in the common room which had forced the passage somehow,
and I answered to my name. The correspondence of the prisoners is
conducted under difficulties. All letters, written or received, pass
through the doctor's hands, whether opened or not I do not know; and those
that they write go through him, not to those to whom they are addressed,
but to the persons responsible for their imprisonment. There lies another
royal road to the discovery of truth. A fellow-prisoner, who became a
friend of mine in prison (it is the shortest and truest word to use), who
was as sane as I, but, happily for him, stronger in health, conquered this
difficulty by writing letters to every quarter whence he thought help
might come, and posting them by various contrivances in the country
villages when he took his walks and drives abroad. He won his freedom; and
the first use he made of it was to bestir himself to win me mine. Does
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