Kentucky -- Fiction; Self-actualization (Psychology) in women -- Fiction
the picture of her going, a felt picture, spread downward through her
limbs that lay relaxed now, ready for the sudden spasm of movement.
* * * * *
At once a vivid appearance entered her mind, so brilliant and powerful
that her consciousness was abashed. Larger than the world, more spacious
than the universe, the new apparition spread through her members and
tightened her hands so that they knotted suddenly together. It tightened
her spine until she sat erect. Her recognition settled to a word, groped
with words, settled again about a word, some word, catching at words with
a net. The word was vivid, was like a new flower in a sunny place, and
unable to say it she knew it with a rush of thanksgiving that out-ran all
her recognition of it. The word she could not say, could only approach
with reaching tentacles of memory and thought, erected a joy throughout
her senses. Her body spread widely and expanded to its former reach, and
the earth came back, herself acutely aware of it. A pleasure that she
still lived to participate in this recognition caught her throat with
a deep sob. She had shifted her gaze so that she looked now into the
fire. She sat leaned forward, tense with new life, with the new world,
and she penetrated the embers with her gaze and saw into the universe of
the fire, the firmament of dimly glowing heat that receded, worlds on
worlds, back into infinities, atoms, powers, all replete with their own
abundance. She laughed in her joy and went with the fire, more living
now than the coals in the heart of the red ash. The word let a happy
substitute stand for itself, a delegate appearing clearly defined, a
word experienced as a glow of pride in life and joy. “Tomorrow” was the
utterance, clearly placed then. On the next day the peddler would come
along the road. This homely, habitual fact had been the Arise-ye of her
resurrection. “I’m still alive,” she sang under her breath, “I’m alive,
I’m alive.” She leaned tensely near the hearth and spoke, or she smiled
without speaking. Her eyes were dim with the new birth and the bloom of
renascence slightly blurred her consciousness as yet. The loaned word
grew more vivid, “Tomorrow,” substituted now for the unsaid word that
receded, its mission accomplished. She leaned near the hearth.
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