Kentucky -- Fiction; Self-actualization (Psychology) in women -- Fiction
They seemed sweetly childish in their pleasure in the vine and Theodosia
looked at them with wonder and detachment. The best thing in the world
teased her for a reply. She saw that her aunt had cared for the vine and
had become actual and present in her pride of it. She had brought it
from a long distance and had cared for it along the way in the train,
giving it water. It had come from the wall of some relative in Virginia.
She turned to Mnemosyne, for the beautiful word came again and again
to her ear once her grandfather had named it. He had told her of it
before, Memory, the mother of all, the seed of the mind. It was a curious
question, the query her uncle had made, as simple as breath; she thought
that all the people in the world must know the answer or must be in
pursuit of the answer to a question of such importance—the best thing in
the world. She wondered if Mnemosyne might not be the answer, the best,
and her mind swam dizzily in a sense of vaguely remembered beautiful
words, their ideas ill-shaped, words remembered more for their beauty
of tone than for their thought—asphodel, Mytilene. But there were other
beautiful things, other best things. They eluded her, unnamed, receding
down a long vista into her inner sight. She recalled particular occasions
when the surrounding world had seemed good, a good place in which to
be. Admiring words from others, caresses, gifts, all the people singing
in the church—in the seed of each happening an insufficiency. There was
never enough.
They were on the portico again, the mottled shadows of the boughs falling
on their faces. The voices became sharp and firm, pleasantly outlined,
immense, governed by some relation to the vine on the wall and its great
reach from the soil of the ground. In the moment all the people present
became actors in a pageant and all the words they said seemed deeply
significant as if they were proclaiming themselves now in their real and
permanent, unillusory aspect, in their true cause and relation. Annie lay
in the doorway with a picture book. Anthony Bell was talking, his hand
upraised. Lucas came from the kitchen garden with a respectful message,
affected embarrassment, his head bowed, the proper approach. Their voices
stood with length and breadth, sharply edged.
* * * * *
Every day or two Theodosia would ask her aunt if she and Annie might
go to see Aunt Deesie. The walk across the pasture and the cornfield
was long, but the pleasure of Aunt Deesie’s yard was sweet. Aunt Deesie
ironed the clothes, heating the irons on the open embers of the fire that
burned in the yard. The baby always lay on the quilt and the small girls
stood bashfully about. One day Theodosia took them some of the candy Tom
Singleton had brought from the store. She could scarcely endure the joy
of her loathing as she touched their fingers in giving them the sweets.
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