Authors, German -- 19th century -- Biography; May, Karl Friedrich, 1842-1912
I have to mention that this musical work was not my main
occupation. By no means, it caused me to be relieved from
performing the same amount of work which any other prisoner had to
do every day, if he wanted to avoid getting into trouble. This
workload was not too much; everyone who is willing to work could
make it. The skillful ones would even make it in a few hours.
Therefore, I was left with amply enough time for my compositions,
which I did not even abandon, after I had been transfered out of
the visitation of the wallet manufacturers. This was when they
fulfilled my profound wish to be by myself.
Right from the start, when I had been committed, I had asked to be
given a cell for myself; but a fulfilment of this wish had not
been possible. Not until now, after the final psychological
judgement had been made about me, I was transfered to the
isolation building and received my room right next to the office
of its inspector. He was a highly educated and humane gentleman,
who was very conscious of his duties, and I became his personal
clerk. This had been a job which had not existed up until this
point. Let me here draw your attention to this psychologically
meaningful point, that at the time of my commitment I had been
completely unable to be a clerk, but was now regarded as capable,
to perform the job of a clerk, which required great mental
carefulness and insight and was the position of the highest
confidence in the entire institution. This is because, aside from
being the head of the isolation building, my inspector's
professional duties also included the preparation of written
documents. This work of his concerned the peculiar statistics of
our institution and the manner and the tasks of the penal system
in general. He wrote the reports which dealt with his subject and
was very busy corresponding with all outstanding men of the penal
system. My task was to determine the statistical figures, to
investigate their reliability, to compile and compare them, and
finally to extract result out of them. Basically, this was a very
hard, strenuous, and seemingly boring occupation with a set of
lifeless numbers; but to piece these numbers together into
characters and to breathe life and soul into these characters, to
make them speak, this was most interesting, and I may very well
say that I have learnt much, very much there, and that this work
in my quiet, lonely cell has advanced my progress in understanding
the psychology of mankind much further, than what I would have
been able to achieve without this imprisonment. That, for this
purpose, only the best and most reliable documents were at my
disposal, goes entirely without saying. There, I have learnt to
understand the most peculiar things. There, I have looked into
the deepest depths of human existence and seen things, which
others will never see, because they are blind to them. There, I
have realized that grandmother's fable was telling the truth, that
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