Authors, German -- 19th century -- Biography; May, Karl Friedrich, 1842-1912
Due to her profession, my mother had to visit other families all
of the time. They confided in her. They liked her. She was told
everything, without feeling the need to explicitly ask her to keep
it confidential. She got to know everything which happened in our
little town and the surrounding area. Somewhere, there had been a
burglary. Everyone talked about it. The perpetrator had escaped.
Soon, there was another one, carried out in the same manner. In
addition, there were some cases of fraud, probably pulled off by
impoverished, young craftsmen. I did not even listen, when the
conversation turned to this, but noticed after some time that
mother was even more serious than usual and regarded me, when she
thought she was unobserved, with such a peculiar, pitiful look.
In the beginning, I stayed quiet, but soon, I thought that I had
to ask her for the reason. She did not want to answer; but I
asked her, until she did. There was a rumour going around, an
incomprehensible rumour, that I was this burglar. Who else should
be suspected but me, the former prisoner? Externally, I laughed
about it, but internally I was outraged, and I had a few hard
nights. There was a roaring inside of me from nightfall until
morning. The voices screamed out to me: "Fight us as much as you
will, we won't let you go! You belong to us! We will force you
to get even! To the world, you are a scoundrel and have to
continue being a scoundrel, if you want to have your peace!" So I
heard it at night. When I wanted to work by day, I could not
achieve anything. I could not eat. Mother had told it to father
as well. Both asked me not to let this matter be so hard on me.
They could speak up for me. After all, they knew very well that I
had not left the house at the times in question. What we found
out, was all said in confidence. No name was given. Therefore,
there was nothing tangible, I could have used to defend myself.
But it got worse. The local police was against me. I had been
dismissed with an attestation of trustworthiness, and therefore, I
had escaped their supervision. Now they thought to have a reason
for investigating me. A few new pranks were pulled off, the
perpetrators of which necessarily had to possess some
intelligence. It was believed that this would point to me. This
was at the same time when the before mentioned "Lügenschmiede"
<forge of lies> started to form. New rumours circulated with
romantic embellishments. The sergeant inquired unofficially,
where I had been on certain days and at certain times. I was
stared at, wherever I went in public; but as soon as I returned
these looks, they swiftly turned away. Then, I met a poor, but
decent fellow, a schoolmate, who had always liked me, and even
now, still felt close to me. He was literally clumsy and
unforgiveably honest. He thought it was everyone's duty to be
crude. He could not stand it any longer. He came to me and told
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