34. Morning Songs 214 PART VII 35. Rajendrahal Mitra 231 36. Karwar 235 37. Nature's Revenge 238 38. Pictures and Songs 241 39. An Intervening Period 244 40. Bankim Chandra 247 PART VIII 41. The Steamer Hulk 255 42. Bereavements 257 43. The Rains and Autumn 264 44. Sharps and Flats 267 LIST OF ILLUSTRATIONS Rabindranath Tagore from the Portrait by S. K. Hesh _Frontispiece_ _Facing Page_ Tagore in 1877 6 The Inner Garden Was My Paradise 14 The Ganges 54 Satya 64 Singing to My Father 82 The Himalayas 94 The Servant-Maids in the Verandah 106 My Eldest Brother 120 Moonlight 180 The Ganges Again 208 Karwar Beach 236 My Brother Jyotirindra 256 PART I MY REMINISCENCES (1) I know not who paints the pictures on memory's canvas; but whoever he may be, what he is painting are pictures; by which I mean that he is not there with his brush simply to make a faithful copy of all that is happening. He takes in and leaves out according to his taste. He makes many a big thing small and small thing big. He has no compunction in putting into the background that which was to the fore, or bringing to the front that which was behind. In short he is painting pictures, and not writing history. Thus, over Life's outward aspect passes the series of events, and within is being painted a set of pictures. The two correspond but are not one. We do not get the leisure to view thoroughly this studio within us. Portions of it now and then catch our eye, but the greater part remains out of sight in the darkness. Why the ever-busy painter is painting; when he will have done; for what gallery his pictures are destined--who can tell?