He held her against him uneasily as they walked. Julia wished he would
not touch her as if he were afraid.
When they mounted the stairs they found her room dark. Laurence released
her and she went ahead of him to find the light. The moon made a long
blue shadow that lay alive on the floor. The bright windows of the
houses opposite seemed to flicker with the moving branches of the trees
that came between. The night air of the city flowed cold into the room
and had a dead smell. They heard the horn of a motor car and children
were laughing in the street. Julia was shivering, fumbling for the
electric lamp.
Laurence, though he barely saw the outline of her figure, was suddenly
aware of something confused and ominous in her delay. "What's the
matter, Julia? Do you need my help?" His tone was very casual but
gentle. He startled himself. She's unhappy. I need to be kind. He had
been restless, feeling something between them. She must come to me. He
had a quick sense of relief and tenderness.
The light rushed out and bathed the indistinct walls. The carpet was
bleached with it. There was a circle of radiance low about the desk
where the lamp stood. Julia had not answered. Her shoulders, turned to
him, resisted him. Her head was bent forward, away. She was moving some
papers under a book. Her bare hand and arm appeared startlingly alive,
saffron-colored in the glow, trembling out of the dim blackness of her
sleeve. There were blanched reflections in the lighted folds of her silk
skirt.
Laurence was all at once afraid, as if he had never seen her before.
"Julia!" He moved a step toward her.
She turned to him, her hands behind her, palms downward on the desk
against which she braced herself. Her face was old. Her eyes, staring at
him, seemed blind.
Laurence frowned while his lips twitched in a queer smile. He tried to
speak, but could not. Without knowing why, he wanted to keep her from
speaking.
She buried her face in her hands. "I have something horrible to tell
you, Laurence."
Her voice, unexpectedly calm, disconcerted him. Neither had she intended
to speak like that. She wanted her emotions to release her. She wanted
to be confused. The clearness of the instant terrified her.
Laurence could not ask her what it was. Something hurt him at that
moment more than she could ever hurt him afterward. He wanted the
silence, unendurable as it was, to go on forever.
Silence.
He came to her and took her hands from her eyes. It was hard for him to
touch her. Her lids closed. She turned her head aside.
"What's the matter, Julia? What's happened? Have I done anything to hurt
you? Tell me."
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