Narrative and Miscellaneous PapersDe Quincey, Thomas
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Narrative and Miscellaneous Papers
De Quincey, Thomas
English essays; English fiction
'Oft he to her his charge of quick return
Repeated; she to him as oft engag'd
To be returned by noon amid the bow'r,
And all things in best order to invite
Noon-tide repast, or afternoon's repose.
Oh much deceived, much failing, hapless Eve!
Of thy presumed return, event perverse!
Thou never from that hour in Paradise
Found'st either sweet repast, or sound repose.'
'_My_ Eve!' I exclaimed, 'partner in _my_ paradise, where art thou?
_Much failing_ thou wilt not be found, nor _much deceived_; innocent in
any case thou art; but, alas! too surely by this time _hapless_, and the
victim of some diabolic wickedness.' Thus I murmured to myself; thus I
ejaculated; thus I apostrophized my Agnes; then again came a stormier
mood. I could not sit still; I could not stand in quiet; I threw the
book from me with violence against the wall; I began to hurry backwards
and forwards in a short uneasy walk, when suddenly a sound, a step; it
was the sound of the garden-gate opening, followed by a hasty tread.
Whose tread? Not for a moment could it be fancied the oread step which
belonged to that daughter of the hills--my wife, my Agnes; no, it was
the dull massy tread of a man: and immediately there came a loud blow
upon the door, and in the next moment, the bell having been found, a
furious peal of ringing. Oh coward heart! not for a lease of immortality
could I have gone forwards myself. My breath failed me; an interval
came in which respiration seemed to be stifled--the blood to halt in its
current; and then and there I recognised in myself the force and living
truth of that Scriptural description of a heart consciously beset by
evil without escape: 'Susannah _sighed_.' Yes, a long, long sigh--a
deep, deep sigh--that is, the natural language by which the over-charged
heart utters forth the wo that else would break it. I sighed--oh how
profoundly! But that did not give me power to move. Who will go to the
door? I whispered audibly. Who is at the door? was the inaudible whisper
of my heart. Then might be seen the characteristic differences of the
three women. That one, whom I suspected, I heard raising an upper window
to look out and reconnoitre. The affectionate Rachael, on the other
hand, ran eagerly down stairs; but Hannah, half dressed, even her
bosom exposed, passed her like a storm; and before I heard any sound of
opening a door, I saw from the spot where I stood the door already wide
open, and a man in the costume of a policeman. All that he said I could
not hear; but this I heard--that I was wanted at the police office, and
had better come off without delay. He seemed then to get a glimpse of
me, and to make an effort towards coming nearer; but I slunk away, and
left to Hannah the task of drawing from him any circumstances which he
might know. But apparently there was not much to tell, or rather, said
I, there is too much, the _much_ absorbs the _many_; some one mighty
evil transcends and quells all particulars. At length the door was
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