Narrative and Miscellaneous PapersDe Quincey, Thomas
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Narrative and Miscellaneous Papers
De Quincey, Thomas
English essays; English fiction
The state of Agnes, as to health and bodily strength, was now becoming
such that I was forcibly warned--whatsoever I meditated doing, to do
quickly. There was this urgent reason for alarm: once conveyed into
that region of the prison in which sentences like hers were executed, it
became hopeless that I could communicate with her again. All intercourse
whatsoever, and with whomsoever, was then placed under the most rigorous
interdict; and the alarming circumstance was, that this transfer was
governed by no settled rules, but might take place at any hour, and
would certainly be precipitated by the slightest violence on my part,
the slightest indiscretion, or the slightest argument for suspicion.
Hard indeed was the part I had to play, for it was indispensable that
I should appear calm and tranquil, in order to disarm suspicions around
me, whilst continually contemplating the possibility that I myself might
be summoned to extremities which I could not so much as trust myself to
name or distinctly to conceive. But thus stood the case: the Government,
it was understood, angered by the public opposition, resolute for the
triumph of what they called 'principle,' had settled finally that the
sentence should be carried into execution. Now that she, that my Agnes,
being the frail wreck that she had become, could have stood one week of
this sentence practically and literally enforced--was a mere chimera. A
few hours probably of the experiment would have settled that question
by dismissing her to the death she longed for; but because the suffering
would be short, was I to stand by and to witness the degradation--the
pollution--attempted to be fastened upon her. What! to know that her
beautiful tresses would be shorn ignominiously--a felon's dress forced
upon her--a vile taskmaster with authority to----; blistered be the
tongue that could go on to utter, in connection with her innocent name,
the vile dishonors which were to settle upon her person! I, however, and
her brother had taken such resolutions that this result was one barely
possible; and yet I sickened (yes, literally I many times experienced
the effect of physical sickness) at contemplating our own utter childish
helplessness, and recollecting that every night during our seclusion
from the prison the last irreversible step might be taken--and in the
morning we might find a solitary cell, and the angel form that had
illuminated it gone where we could not follow, and leaving behind her
the certainty that we should see her no more. Every night, at the hour
of locking up, _she_, at least, manifestly had a fear that she saw
us for the last time; she put her arms feebly about my neck, sobbed
convulsively, and, I believe, guessed--but, if really so, did not much
reprove or quarrel with the desperate purposes which I struggled with in
regard to her own life. One thing was quite evident--that to the peace
of her latter days, now hurrying to their close, it was indispensable
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