Narrative and Miscellaneous PapersDe Quincey, Thomas
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Narrative and Miscellaneous Papers
De Quincey, Thomas
English essays; English fiction
Silent they were at this season, even as in the panting heats of noon,
the Zaarrahs of the torrid zone are oftentimes silent. Dreadful was the
silence; it was the nearest thing to the silence of the grave. Graves
were at the foot of the Andes, _that_ she knew too well; graves were at
the summit of the Andes, _that_ she saw too well. And, as she gazed, a
sudden thought flashed upon her, when her eyes settled upon the corpses
of the poor deserters--could she, like _them_, have been all this while
unconsciously executing judgment upon herself? Running from a wrath that
was doubtful, into the very jaws of a wrath that was inexorable? Flying
in panic--and behold! there was no man that pursued? For the first time
in her life, Kate trembled. _Not_ for the first time, Kate wept. Far
less for the first time was it, that Kate bent her knee--that Kate
clasped her hands--that Kate prayed. But it _was_ the first time that
she prayed as _they_ pray, for whom no more hope is left but in prayer.
Here let me pause a moment for the sake of making somebody angry. A
Frenchman, who sadly misjudges Kate, looking at her through a Parisian
opera-glass, gives it as _his_ opinion--that, because Kate first
_records_ her prayer on this occasion, therefore, now first of all she
prayed. _I_ think not so. _I_ love this Kate, blood-stained as she is;
and I could not love a woman that never bent her knee in thankfulness or
in supplication. However, we have all a right to our own little opinion;
and it is not you, '_mon cher_,' you Frenchman, that I am angry with,
but somebody else that stands behind you. You, Frenchman, and your
compatriots, I love oftentimes for your festal gaiety of heart; and I
quarrel only with your levity and that eternal worldliness that freezes
too fiercely--that absolutely blisters with its frost--like the upper
air of the Andes. _You_ speak of Kate only as too readily you speak of
all women; the instinct of a natural scepticism being to scoff at all
hidden depths of truth. Else you are civil enough to Kate; and your
'_homage_' (such as it may happen to be) is always at the service of a
woman on the shortest notice. But behind _you_, I see a worse fellow;
a gloomy fanatic; a religious sycophant that seeks to propitiate his
circle by bitterness against the offences that are most unlike his own.
And against him, I must say one word for Kate to the too hasty reader.
This villain, whom I mark for a shot if he does not get out of the
way, opens his fire on our Kate under shelter of a lie. For there is a
standing lie in the very constitution of civil society, a _necessity_
of error, misleading us as to the proportions of crime. Mere necessity
obliges man to create many acts into felonies, and to punish them as the
heaviest offences, which his better sense teaches him secretly to regard
as perhaps among the lightest. Those poor deserters, for instance, were
they necessarily without excuse? They might have been oppressively used;
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