Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Married women -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Widows -- Fiction
Before the thought took shape she had read it, and with the smile which
drew such sad lines about her mouth, had continued gaily: “What are you
up to this evening, by the way? What do you say to going to the “Black
Crook” with your cousin Hubert and one or two others? I have a box.”
It was inevitable that, not long after this candid confession, I should
have persuaded myself that a taste for reading was boring in a woman,
and that one of Mrs. Hazeldean’s chief charms lay in her freedom from
literary pretensions. The truth was, of course, that it lay in her
sincerity; in her humble yet fearless estimate of her own qualities and
short-comings. I had never met its like in a woman of any age, and
coming to me in such early days, and clothed in such looks and
intonations, it saved me, in after years, from all peril of meaner
beauties.
But before I had come to understand that, or to guess what falling in
love with Lizzie Hazeldean was to do for me, I had quite unwittingly and
fatuously done the falling. The affair turned out, in the perspective of
the years, to be but an incident of our long friendship; and if I touch
on it here it is only to illustrate another of my poor friend’s gifts.
If she could not read books she could read hearts; and she bent a
playful yet compassionate gaze on mine while it still floundered in
unawareness.
I remember it all as if it were yesterday. We were sitting alone in her
drawing-room, in the winter twilight, over the fire. We had reached--in
her company it was not difficult--the degree of fellowship when friendly
talk lapses naturally into a friendlier silence, and she had taken up
the evening paper while I glowered dumbly at the embers. One little
foot, just emerging below her dress, swung, I remember, between me and
the fire, and seemed to hold her all in the spring of its instep....
“Oh,” she exclaimed, “poor Henry Prest--“. She dropped the paper. “His
wife is dead--poor fellow,” she said simply.
The blood rushed to my forehead: my heart was in my throat. She had
named him--named him at last, the recreant lover, the man who had
“dishonoured” her! My hands were clenched: if he had entered the room
they would have been at his throat....
And then, after a quick interval, I had again the humiliating
disheartening sense of not understanding: of being too young, too
inexperienced, to know. This woman, who spoke of her deceived husband
with tenderness, spoke compassionately of her faithless lover! And she
did the one as naturally as the other, not as if this impartial charity
were an attitude she had determined to assume, but as if it were part of
the lesson life had taught her.
“I didn’t know he was married,” I growled between my teeth.
She meditated absently. “Married? Oh, yes; when was it? The year after
...” her voice dropped again ... “after my husband died. He married a
quiet cousin, who had always been in love with him, I believe. They had
two boys.--You knew him?” she abruptly questioned.
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