The afternoon was wearing away. Fulvia had never before known so long
a stretch of night and day. It seemed more like twenty-four weeks than
twenty-four hours since yesterday's light chatting between herself and
the other girls about Nigel's return.
Was the whole of life to be dragged through in the same fashion? Fulvia
asked this wearily, forgetting that the sharpest pain does in time lose
something of its acuteness. She had known little hitherto of any pain;
and endurance is not easy. Fulvia felt like a tired-out child; as if
it would have been the greatest comfort to lay her head on somebody's
knee, and have another good cry.
Nobody knew, of course, how tears were threatening the whole day. That
had been the way with Fulvia from her cradle. She might pass through
a year, or any number of years, without the smallest breakdown—always
bright and even-spirited; but if once the sluices were forced open, she
had to battle for days to regain her usual standing, and a word might
overcome her.
"Fulvia Rolfe does not often cry, but when she does, she goes in for a
regular rainy season," an old gentleman had once said.
The last "rainy season" lay so far back, however, that the possibility
of its recurrence was forgotten.
Such a "rainy season" was on her now, only nobody supposed the
fact—nobody saw anything unusual. The girls could only think of Nigel;
and Nigel, at lunch, would only talk and laugh with Daisy, not seeming
to notice Fulvia at all. Soon after two he had gone out, and now, at
nearly six, he was still absent.
"What has become of Nigel?"
Daisy asked this again, bouncing the door open, banging it to in her
childish fashion, and dancing across the room. Daisy's dancing was not
sylph-like, and the room vibrated to her steps.
Fulvia could have cried out sharply, "Oh, don't!" but she did not,
because Daisy would at once have inquired—"Why?" The fire was blazing,
and she took up her work.
"Why don't you have lights? You'll hurt your eyes."
"Simms came, but I sent him away. This looked pleasanter."
"I can't imagine what makes Nigel stay out such a time; can you? Mother
is getting into a worry. He couldn't be the whole afternoon with Mr.
Carden-Cox, you know, or at the Rectory either. Fulvie, what did make
you say that at breakfast-time about his going again to the Rectory?"
"I made myself."
"Well, but why? When you know mother can't bear him to go!"
Fulvia was silent, and Daisy's childish eyes scanned her. They were
clever eyes, only undeveloped.
"Fulvie, why does mother dislike the Elveys? I think they are so nice."
"She doesn't."
"Yes, she does."
"No, it is not dislike. You are talking nonsense."
"Well then, she doesn't like Nigel to like them so much."
"Go and get something to do."
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