Cattle drives -- Fiction; Texas -- Fiction; Western stories
“You come here to preach to me? Is that the way to do? Oh, you ride into
my place and you make me tear out my heart with shame and humiliation
and show it to you. And then you ride away again and say good-by and
tell me to forget! Why did you come here at all? Couldn’t you have
mailed back my draft?”
He hesitated. His hand dropped to his side. Suddenly he held out to her
a little object which so, by accident, he had touched; something which
had been in the side pocket of his coat. In appearance it was a fragment
of dark red rock, broken irregularly. But Taisie’s eyes noticed that to
it clung another object—a horse-shoe steel, such as the riders of the
outlands were used to carry with a bit of flint so they might be safe
for fire in any exigency. Without plan, these two objects now served Dan
McMasters for the thing which he had not been able to put into speech.
“Anastasie,” said he, “look at this! It’s nothing—only a bit of ore I
picked up near the Wichitas when I came through. But see, it’s magnetic.
Look how steel clings to it! You hardly can draw them apart; it will
pull to it every little piece of metal. It can’t help itself; they can’t
help themselves.
“Taisie, what’s inside of it? I don’t know. What is that force that we
can’t see? I don’t know. I don’t know anything. You ask me questions
that I can’t answer. All I know is that the magnet and the steel come
together—here, you see. And yet you ask me why am I here now? I don’t
know. It’s the same reason that made me leave Rudabaugh alive in his
camp and ride after you.
“Didn’t I tell you there are things we can’t weigh or measure? There’s
something behind the world we can’t any of us find out! Why did I come?
I don’t know.”
He tossed the little bit of rock and the clinging steel upon the ground
beside the twisted fragment of Anastasie Lockhart’s draft, “In full to
date.” His eyes were softened. The lines of chin and jaw seemed new to
her.
“I have been trying to reason things out,” said he at last, in a new,
strange, shaken voice she never yet had heard. “I am trying now to
reason out why I don’t get on up and ride on away. We’ve said good-by.
I’ve reasoned that you couldn’t love me. Am I right or wrong?”
Anastasie Lockhart slowly raised her face, her serious, grave eyes
looking straight into his.
“You were wrong!” said she. “You have used me like a man. I was a
woman.”
He stepped toward her, in the open sunlight where any might have seen,
caught her face between his two hands and looked into her eyes with his
own new eyes.
“You don’t mean we could both begin again? You don’t mean you could
forget what I have been? You don’t mean I could ever be good enough for
you? You don’t mean you could ever learn to love me in spite of what I
was, for sake of what I am going to try to be? Tell me—answer me now,
for I don’t think I can endure this.”
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