Husband and wife -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
"It wasn't not meant for me not to hear. I was just playing with my new
doll. I never listened behind the curtains. I never did," said Floss,
"not since the day I cut the worm up, and Uncle Beachey scolded me. The
day Aunty Woma said she'd go away, and Uncle Beachey was angwy. And I
never told that mamma scolded Aunty Woma till she cwied. Aunty Woma
didn't go away, but Uncle Beachey did, and when he comed back he bwought
you, Aunty 'Genia, and I wish you wouldn't look so gwave. Please don't
be angwy with me." There was an "et tu, Brute," inflection in the
child's tone which, through all her tumultuous feelings, touched
Eugenia. She stooped to kiss Floss, promising her not to be angry if
she would never again talk about what she heard big people say. Then
she sent her away to her dolls, and sat by herself trying to think over
what she had heard, calmly; trying to persuade herself the inference to
be drawn from Floss's garbled communication was not what her first
instinct had told her it was; trying to believe it _could_ not be true
that her husband had never really cared for her--that he had married her
merely in a fit of mortified vanity, "out of pique."
Beauchamp was away that day. He had left home on a two days' visit in
the neighbourhood, in which, greatly to her disgust, Mrs Eyrecourt had
not been invited to accompany him. Had he been at home, doubtless
Eugenia, in her first impetuous excitement, would have rushed to him for
confirmation or refutation of what her morbid imagination had already
worked up into a plausible history of deception and concealment on his
part--of cruel advantage taken of her inexperience and confiding trust--
an explanation, she told herself, of his having so quickly grown weary
of her, to which it now seemed to her innumerable, little-considered
trifles pointed as the true one.
"Not that I blame him for loving Roma," she thought. "Oh no--not that.
But he knew I was giving him my all, and he took it, sought it, knowing
he had nothing to give me in return. Ah, it was cruel!"
She pressed her hands to her throbbing temples and burning eyes. It was
too late in the day for any relief by tears; she felt as if she could
never cry again. For a long time she sat there motionless. Then a
sudden thought struck her. "I will hear the whole truth," she said,
with a sudden fierce determination. "I will make his sister tell it
all. There is nothing dishonourable in forcing her to tell me what he
has wilfully concealed, if, as the child says, they talk together of the
past, and wish now--now that I am his wife, the mother of his child,"
(this thought, alas! bringing no softening influence with it) "that it
could be undone. Yes, I will make her tell it all, and she shall see
what she has done--ruined two lives, if not three."
But through her tremendous excitement she remembered one trifling
consideration. She would not betray poor baby Floss. Mrs Eyrecourt
should never know how she had learnt the truth.
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