Husband and wife -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
Roma kissed her without speaking, and left the room.
In the few minutes that passed before Captain Chancellor came upstairs
how many painful anticipations had time to rush through Eugenia's brain!
She was determined to go through with what she had promised to Roma and
to herself to attempt: she would humble herself to the utmost that she
could truthfully do so; she would ask her husband's forgiveness; she
would own that she had taken up, with exaggeration and bitterness, Mrs
Eyrecourt's version of the past. All this she would say: she owed it to
her own self-respect to do so, hopeless as she felt of any good effect
it might have on her future, little as she anticipated that it would
awaken any generous or tender feelings towards her in her husband's
heart. She pictured to herself the cold air of superiority with which
he would receive her confession; she recalled the unsympathising
contempt with which on several occasions her impulsive endeavours to
draw nearer to him, to understand him better, had been thrown back on
herself with a recoil of indignant mortification--and she said to
herself that her fate was a very hard one.
There came a sort of tap at the door, and in answer to her tremulous
"come in," Captain Chancellor appeared. She was standing by the table,
in the same attitude as that in which Roma left her. She looked up as
Beauchamp closed the door, and came forward. To her surprise, she
perceived at once that he was looking ill and careworn, and that his
bearing was by no means free from agitation. She was so surprised that
she forgot what she had meant to say first of all; she opened her lips
mechanically, but no sound was heard: then a sort of giddiness came over
her for a moment, and half unconsciously she closed her eyes. He was
beside her in an instant. "Eugenia," he exclaimed, "Eugenia, how ill
you are looking! My poor darling, I may not have understood you--I have
been a blind, selfish, careless husband, but oh, my dear, you should not
have fancied I was so bad as not to care for your suffering! I did
care--I do care. Your leaving me has half broken my heart. Will you
not come back and try me again? Will you not believe in my love for
you? Truly, it has always been there, though you doubted it." Where
were all Eugenia's carefully considered words of confession? "Thus far
have I done wrong, but no farther; to this extent have I been wanting in
my wifely duty, but not beyond." She threw her arms round her husband's
neck, and careless of possible repulse she burst into tears.
"Beauchamp," she said, simply, "I am very sorry for what I have done
wrong. I will try to please you better in the future if you will
forgive the past."
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