Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863 — John Shaqi
Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863Anonymous
History
Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863
Anonymous
United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Hospitals
My assent was followed instantly by another equally abrupt question,
“Then you’ll tell me where do people go when they die? That man, there--I
heard him--said I was dying; I’ve been asking him all night, and he won’t
tell me.”
“If you will mind what I say now, and try to be very still, when you
have less fever, I will talk to you and tell you all you want to know.”
“I’ll be dead then, and I want to know before I die.”
Very sure that any excitement at present must be injurious, after several
ineffectual attempts to divert his mind, I deemed it best to leave him,
making an excuse of other duties, and promising to return if he would try
to keep quiet. The surgeon’s report was favorable; the change in him was
quite unexpected, and recovery was possible, though by no means probable.
I left him alone, purposely, for some hours; but the moment I re-entered
the ward he exclaimed, “Now you will tell me.”
Judging it better to quiet his mind, I sat down and spoke to him quietly
and gently of his home. Home! the talisman which charms away all pain and
soothes all sorrow. Should any one ask how to reach the men? how gain an
influence over them? I would reply by pointing them to Napoleon’s policy,
or later, to our own Burnside, and let the fields of Roanoke and Newbern
bear witness to the success of the experiment. Attack the centre. Storm
the heart. Make a man speak of his home. Listen, while he tells with
bitter self-reproach, how he enlisted without consent; and how, since
then, the night wind’s wail seems mourning mother’s moan; listen to the
tearful tale of the loneliness of some brave-hearted wife, who sent
her treasure forth, and battles nobly on at home; (which is the harder
strife?) or of the parting hour, and clinging clasp of little arms round
that rough neck, which would not be undone, and which may never tighten
there again. And once more listen, as I did yesterday, to an account of a
return home, on a furlough, of one bronzed and weather-beaten by severe
service and exposure; the joyful expectation; the journey; the gradual
approach to the well-known gate; every detail dwelt upon and lingered
over; “And, if you’ll believe it, my Charlie didn’t know me! I couldn’t
stand it nohow;” and the tears which will not be repressed, fall thickly
on the crutches at his side. Lead a man, I say, to tell you such things
as these, and he can never again feel towards you as a stranger; he will
bring you his letters, or tell you their contents, with a feeling that
you know the persons therein mentioned, and will sympathize with either
his joy or sorrow. The citadel is won; he has put the key into your hands
which you may fit at any moment to the lock of his heart, and enter at
will; thus is a bond established between you, for the proper improvement
of which you will be responsible in the sight of God.
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