Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863 — John Shaqi
Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863Anonymous
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Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863
Anonymous
United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Hospitals
But while I am talking, I see that your eyes are wandering to that bed,
where one of our sickest men is lying. He is an Irishman, and far gone in
consumption, poor fellow! He has interested me much by his air of silent,
weary suffering, and from his loneliness; he seems to have no friends
anywhere, and is very grateful for the least service rendered him. And
yet he has a good deal of drollery about him, and when his pain will
let him, often amuses the men with his dry remarks. The other day, as
I passed him, his hard, hollow cough was followed by such a deep, heavy
sigh, that I stopped at once, saying, “What can I do for you, Jones? Is
there nothing that you want?”
“Nothing, ma’am, nothing; sure, and what I want, is what you can’t give.”
“Tell me what it is; perhaps I may be able to help you.”
“Sure, and it’s lonely I am, so very lonely; and it’s some one to love
that I’m wanting.”
“Ah,” said I, “you were right to say I couldn’t help you, for
unfortunately wives are not provided by Government.”
Here his Irish humor gained the ascendant, and with a merry twinkle in
his eye, so mournful but a moment before, he said, “But I’m thinking
that’s jist what you ladies is here for, to supply what isn’t provided by
Government.”
“Exactly,” said I, much amused; “but I do not find wives among the list
of luxuries on our diet-table. Jones, look at the man at your side, the
man opposite to you, and the man directly in front of you; ask each one
of those three what is their greatest trouble at this moment, and I
happen to know exactly what they will tell you.
“The one at your side is wearying for a letter from his far distant home,
which will not come, and dreading that even on its arrival, it will only
tell him of sickness and suffering among those dearest to him, and
which, lying here, he has no power to relieve; the man opposite to you
has just read me a letter from his wife, telling him that she and the
children were almost starving; she has hurt her right arm, and can no
longer work, scarcely hold the pen to write that letter, and he will send
no pay,--charging him with it, as though the poor fellow could help it.”
“‘God knows,’ he says, ‘every cent I ever earned was at her service and
the weans;’ (he is a Scotchman, as I knew, when I heard him say that)
‘but the pay don’t come, and I lie here thinking all night, till I
sometimes feel I must pray very hard or I shall cut my throat.’
“I have been trying to comfort him with the assurance that he will be
paid before long, and have been telling him how many difficulties there
are in the way of prompt payment in the army, and that the men must try
to be patient, and believe that the Government has a hard task, far
harder than they know, to meet all the requirements which this sad state
of things necessarily causes.
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