Conrad, Joseph, 1857-1924; Essays; Literature -- History and criticism
To our right the unequal massive towers of St. Mary's Church soared aloft
into the ethereal radiance of the air, very black on their shaded sides,
glowing with a soft phosphorescent sheen on the others. In the distance
the Florian Gate, thick and squat under its pointed roof, barred the
street with the square shoulders of the old city wall. In the narrow,
brilliantly pale vista of bluish flagstones and silvery fronts of houses,
its black archway stood out small and very distinct.
There was not a soul in sight, and not even the echo of a footstep for
our ears. Into this coldly illuminated and dumb emptiness there issued
out of my aroused memory, a small boy of eleven, wending his way, not
very fast, to a preparatory school for day-pupils on the second floor of
the third house down from the Florian Gate. It was in the winter months
of 1868. At eight o'clock of every morning that God made, sleet or
shine, I walked up Florian Street. But of that, my first school, I
remember very little. I believe that one of my co-sufferers there has
become a much appreciated editor of historical documents. But I didn't
suffer much from the various imperfections of my first school. I was
rather indifferent to school troubles. I had a private gnawing worm of
my own. This was the time of my father's last illness. Every evening at
seven, turning my back on the Florian Gate, I walked all the way to a big
old house in a quiet narrow street a good distance beyond the Great
Square. There, in a large drawing-room, panelled and bare, with heavy
cornices and a lofty ceiling, in a little oasis of light made by two
candles in a desert of dusk, I sat at a little table to worry and ink
myself all over till the task of my preparation was done. The table of
my toil faced a tall white door, which was kept closed; now and then it
would come ajar and a nun in a white coif would squeeze herself through
the crack, glide across the room, and disappear. There were two of these
noiseless nursing nuns. Their voices were seldom heard. For, indeed,
what could they have had to say? When they did speak to me it was with
their lips hardly moving, in a claustral, clear whisper. Our domestic
matters were ordered by the elderly housekeeper of our neighbour on the
second floor, a Canon of the Cathedral, lent for the emergency. She,
too, spoke but seldom. She wore a black dress with a cross hanging by a
chain on her ample bosom. And though when she spoke she moved her lips
more than the nuns, she never let her voice rise above a peacefully
murmuring note. The air around me was all piety, resignation, and
silence.
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