that the children could get to school dry-shod.
He could hardly believe that at last he was his own master. No more
inditing of those painfully constructed letters which his sense of duty
had made incumbent on him, letters which it had taken him so long to
write, and which were probably never read. Dick had never attended to
business. If people could not attend to business, Roger wondered what
they could attend to. And he would make it right about Jones. Jones need
never know his master had forgotten him. Roger would give him an annuity
of a hundred a year, and tell him it was by Dick's wish. Dick certainly
would have wished it if he had thought of it. Roger gave a sigh of
relief at the thought of Jones. And he should pension off old Toby and
Hesketh and Nokes. They had worked on the estate for over forty years.
Roger settled quantities of detail in numberless little mental
pigeonholes as the moonlight travelled across the floor.
All through the day and the long evening, whenever he had thought of
Annette, his mind had stood stock-still and refused to move. And now at
last, as if it had waited till this silent hour, the thought of Annette
came to him again, and this time would not be denied. Once more his
resisting mind winced and stood still. And Roger, who had connived at
its resistance, forced it slowly, reluctantly, to do his bidding.
He could marry Annette now. Strange how little joy that thought evoked!
He would have given everything he possessed two days ago--not that he
possessed anything--to have been able to make her his wife. If two days
ago he had been told that he would inherit Hulver and be able to marry
her, his cup would have been full. Well, now he could have her, if she
would take him. He was ashamed, but not as much as he ought to have
been, of his momentary doubt of her. Fortunately, only Janey knew of
that doubt. Annette would never know that he had hesitated. Now that he
came to think of it, she had gone away from him so quickly that he had
not had time to say a word.
Roger sighed heavily.
He knew in his heart that he had not quite trusted Annette when he ought
to have done. But he did absolutely trust Janey. And Janey had said
Annette was innocent. He need not cudgel his brains as to whether he
would still have wanted to marry her if she had been Dick's mistress,
because she never had been. That was settled. Annette was as pure as
Janey herself, and he ought to have known it without Janey having to
tell him.
Roger turned uneasily on his bed, and then took the goad which only
honest men possess, and applied it to his mind. It winced and shrank
back, and then, seeing no help for it, made a step forward.
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