Annette had given him his inheritance. He faced that at last. She had
got the will made. But for her, Dick would have died intestate. And but
for her it was doubtful whether the will would ever have come to light.
Neither the notary nor the doctor had at first connected the death of
Mr. Manvers with that of Dick Le Geyt, even when Roger showed them the
notice in the papers which he had brought with him. Annette had done
everything for him. Well, he would do everything for her. He would marry
her, and be good to her all his life.
Yes, but would she care to marry a man who could only arrive at his
inheritance by smirching her good name? The will could not be proved
without doing that. What wicked folly of Dick to have asked her, poor
child, to witness it! And how exasperatingly like him! He never
considered the result of any action. The slur on Annette's reputation
would be publicly known. The doctor and the notary who had told him of
Annette's relation to Dick could but confirm it. No denial from them was
possible. And sooner or later the ugly scandal would be known by every
creature at Riff.
Roger choked. Now he realized that, was he still willing to marry her?
_He was willing._ He was more than willing, he was absolutely
determined. He wanted her as he had never wanted anything in his life.
He would marry her, and together they would face the scandal and live it
down. Janey would stick to them. He loathed the thought of the
whispering tongues destroying his wife's good name. He sickened at it,
but it was inevitable.
But would Annette on her side be willing to marry _him_, and bear the
obloquy that must fall upon her? Would she not prefer to leave Riff and
him for ever? That was what he must ask her. In his heart he believed
she would still take him. "She would bear it for my sake," he said to
himself. "Annette is very brave, and she thinks nothing of herself."
A faint glimmer of her character was beginning to dawn in her lover's
shaken mind. The "Sun-of-my-soul," tame-canary, fancy portrait of his
own composition, on which he had often fondly dwelt, did not prove much
of a mainstay at this crisis, perhaps because it lacked life. Who can
lean upon a wooden heart! It is sad that some of us never perceive the
nobility of those we love until we need it. Roger had urgent need of
Annette's generosity and unselfishness, urgent need of her humility. He
unconsciously wanted all the greatest qualities of heart and mind from
her, he who had been drawn towards her, as Janey well knew, only by
little things--by her sweet face, and her violet eyes, and the curl on
her white neck.
After all, would it be best for _her_ that they should part?
Something in Roger cried out in such mortal terror of its life that that
thought was dismissed as unendurable.
"We can't part," said Roger to himself. "The truth is, I can't live
without her, and I won't. We'll face it together."
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