Annette looked again at her companion. He had fallen suddenly asleep,
his mouth ajar. How old and shrunk and battered he looked, and how
strangely pinched! There was something unnatural about his appearance. A
horrible suspicion passed through her mind that he had been drinking.
She suddenly remembered that she had once heard a rumour of that kind
about him, and that he had lost a race by it. She had to waken him when
they reached Fontainebleau, and then, after a moment's bewilderment, he
resumed all his alertness and feather-headed promptitude.
Presently she was in a bedroom in an old-fashioned inn, and was looking
out of the window at a little garden, with tiny pebbled walks, and a
fountain, and four stunted, clipped acacia trees.
The hotel was quite full. She had been asked some question as to whether
the room would do, and she had said it would. She had hardly glanced at
it. It was the only room to be had. And Dick's luggage was carried up to
it. The hotel-people took for granted his baggage was hers as well as
his. She remembered that she had none, and smoothed her hair
mechanically with her hands, while an admiring little chamber-maid
whisked in with hot water.
And presently, in the hot, tawdry salle à manger, there was a meal, and
she was sitting at a little table with Dick, and all the food was
pretence, like the tiny wooden joints and puddings in her doll's house
which she used to try to eat as a child. These were larger, and she
tried to eat them, but she could not swallow anything. She wondered how
the others could. And the electric light flickered, and once it went
out, and Dick laughed. And he ordered champagne for her and made her
drink some. And then, though he said he must not touch it, he drank some
himself, and became excited, and she was conscious that a spectacled
youth with projecting teeth turned to look at them. There was a
grey-haired Englishwoman sitting alone at the nearest table. Annette saw
her eyes rest on her for a moment with veiled compassion.
All her life afterwards, she remembered that evening as a nightmare. But
it was not a nightmare at the time. She was only an on-looker: a dazed,
callous spectator of something grotesque which did not affect her--a
mirthless, sordid farce which for some obscure forgotten reason it was
necessary for her to watch. That she was herself the principal actor in
the farce, and that the farce had the makings of a tragedy, did not
occur to her. She was incapable of action and of thought.
Later in the evening she was in her bedroom again, sitting with her
hands in her lap, vacantly staring at the wall with its mustard-coloured
roses on a buff ground, when two grinning waiters half carried, half
hustled in Dick, gesticulating and talking incoherently. They helped him
into bed: the elder one waited a moment, arms a-kimbo, till Dick fell
suddenly asleep, and then said cheerfully and reassuringly--
"C'est ça, madame," and withdrew.
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