I went. He was once more "tidying up." All his drawers were open, and
on the table were piled packs of cards, betting books, and much written
paper, all, as before, in course of demolition.
I smiled: I could not help it, and, no way abashed, he laughed his usual
hearty, honest laugh.
"I know," he exclaimed gaily, "but this is not the same as the others."
Then, laying his hand on my shoulder, and speaking with the sudden
seriousness that comes so readily to shallow natures, he said, "God has
heard my prayer, old friend. He knows I am weak. He has sent down an
angel out of Heaven to help me."
He took her portrait from the mantelpiece and handed it me. It seemed to
me the face of a hard, narrow woman, but, of course, he raved about her.
As he talked, there fluttered to the ground from the heap before him an
old restaurant bill, and, stooping, he picked it up and held it in his
hand, musing.
"Have you ever noticed how the scent of the champagne and the candles
seems to cling to these things?" he said lightly, sniffing carelessly at
it. "I wonder what's become of her?"
"I think I wouldn't think about her at all to-night," I answered.
He loosened his hand, letting the paper fall into the fire.
"My God!" he cried vehemently, "when I think of all the wrong I have
done--the irreparable, ever-widening ruin I have perhaps brought into the
world--O God! spare me a long life that I may make amends. Every hour,
every minute of it shall be devoted to your service."
As he stood there, with his eager boyish eyes upraised, a light seemed to
fall upon his face and illumine it. I had pushed the photograph back to
him, and it lay upon the table before him. He knelt and pressed his lips
to it.
"With your help, my darling, and His," he murmured.
The next morning he was married. She was a well-meaning girl, though her
piety, as is the case with most people, was of the negative order; and
her antipathy to things evil much stronger than her sympathy with things
good. For a longer time than I had expected she kept him
straight--perhaps a little too straight. But at last there came the
inevitable relapse.
I called upon him, in answer to an excited message, and found him in the
depths of despair. It was the old story, human weakness, combined with
lamentable lack of the most ordinary precautions against being found out.
He gave me details, interspersed with exuberant denunciations of himself,
and I undertook the delicate task of peace-maker.
It was a weary work, but eventually she consented to forgive him. His
joy, when I told him, was boundless.
"How good women are," he said, while the tears came into his eyes. "But
she shall not repent it. Please God, from this day forth, I'll--"
He stopped, and for the first time in his life the doubt of himself
crossed his mind. As I sat watching him, the joy died out of his face,
and the first hint of age passed over it.
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