American fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, American -- Periodicals
With the sound of the closing door, Judith Todd collapsed upon a chair.
She was not the crying sort of woman; tears hurt her as they do a man;
but now the floods rushed over her. All the years when she had borne the
pain and the wonder of her gift alone, all the years when it had been
denied, were in that flood. And John Richmond went down on his knees. He
held her racked body close, murmuring his deep sympathy and
understanding. But presently, when she had grown calmer, she tried to
draw herself away, looking much ashamed.
“I’m a frightful fool, letting go like this; and I haven’t thanked you
yet. If you hadn’t lent me this studio, if you hadn’t encouraged me----”
“Don’t, Judith! You know--I’ve told you--ever since that rainy Sunday
afternoon in the Museum, when I saw you prowling around the Rodin things
like a hungry ghost, and finally got up courage to speak to you because
your face had such longing in it--ever since then I’ve believed in you.”
“Yes, you’ve believed in me,” she whispered, as if the wonder of it were
something she could never fathom. “The first one to believe in me.”
“But more than that,” he went on in a low voice. “I’ve loved you.”
She shrank a little and put up her hand.
“No, no, that can’t be so! Look at me, a shabby old maid. I know! I
haven’t got young nieces for nothing; and I’m considered a bit queer
too. That has always been rubbed into me too. But it doesn’t matter now.
You don’t need to think you love me, for I have so much now. A chance to
work, unashamed--and your friendship. I--I shall be content with that; I
don’t ask more than that.”
“Judith, don’t you know it’s a privilege to love you? Don’t you know
you’re wonderful in your courage and strength? Don’t you know you’re
beautiful?”
All the light and amazement there was in the world seemed to be in her
enormous eyes.
“It is too much,” she whispered, “to be offered love and fame all in one
hour. I’m afraid. I’ve never been afraid before, but now I’m scared. I’m
afraid of waking up.”
He drew her to her feet.
“Come and look at something real and you’ll know this is no dream.”
Together they stood beside the long table and bent over the little
figures so vital and so gay, which were the soul of Judith Todd squeezed
out of her by the drab discipline of the years, turning itself at the
first touch of encouragement into these vivid and mordant fragments.
“How did you do it?” he cried. “How did you get underneath the surface
like that, as if you had stripped off the smooth skin and seen what was
rioting underneath, the ridiculous and sublime fantasy of the soul?”
It was then that she laughed, low and happily.
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