American fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, American -- Periodicals
Matilda’s father was shy and the only German thing about him was his
name. There was a foreign gleam in his hazel eyes and the hair that
fimbriated his bald head was black. He had not inherited Mathilde
Lantier’s fire--that fire which had made the submitting required of her
a thing almost as prismatic as the unrealizable dreams of other people.
But he hated the store. Matilda was the only one who suspected this
and she knew it from the gingerly manner in which he handled grubby
potatoes and the delicate way he turned up his nose over a slab of
ancient cheese. Once Matilda caught him trying to carve the head of a
Greek goddess out of a bar of American Family Soap, and after that she
had a dim kind of respect for the thin man who shuffled uncomplainingly
about the murky store at all hours.
This, then, was Matilda’s family. It was no worse than the usual run of
families, but Matilda thought she was uniquely cursed. The trouble was
that Matilda’s frustrations blinded her to everything but her own point
of view. If only her French blood were given an opportunity to riot
uncensored! But no opportunity had materialized ... that is none which
iridescently mattered. To be sure, she had taken a degree from the
little sectarian college on the edge of Crittenden, but that experience
had only enabled her to rebel against fate in terms of bad poetry.
Matilda deserted her sugar and went over and stood in the doorway.
She glanced up and down the clapboarded vista of Main Street. Dora
Todd, the blue-and-gold daughter of the banker, clicked by on her new
red heels. Envious tears smarted Matilda’s eyelids. She did not envy
Dora because the wind tossed her curls flaxenly, nor did she covet
eyes made of azure china, but those heels were another matter. They
typified Dora’s power to dress herself up. Matilda adored her own
dark obliqueness and she would have liked to keep it in the style to
which it deserved to be accustomed. Those heels now--they might have
been those of her ancestress, young Mathilde Lantier, setting Paris
boulevards to music! Matilda shook herself impatiently. Why couldn’t
her grandmother stay out of it? She even appropriated the heels of that
silly cream-coloured girl who didn’t know Balzac from buttons! And that
wasn’t the worst of it. Pretty soon that other woman would take command
of her resentment--that irritatingly brilliant woman who had flooded
the world with printed proofs that she had lived the fullest life of
her generation and who had given Mathilde Lantier such vivid advice one
afternoon in her drawing room at Nohant. Sometimes Matilda wished that
her grandmother had kept that memory to herself, for the bright taint
of it simmered through her blood like some high and mighty poison.
* * * * *
This was what had happened.
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